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It's been an odd day. Started off making some scratch unexpectedly, with the guy who we normally buy our supplemental hay from needing to buy some of ours, instead. The middle of the day was one damn thing after another, all requiring errands and going places and tracking down things and basically wearing us both out. End of the day brought us someone in dire need of help, so there goes the small windfall right back out again. Tomorrow and Wednesday I've set aside for some of my own work, and the gate's basically staying shut and locked. No errands. No nothing. Wings wants uninterrupted time in his studio, and I'm already a month behind on a bunch of stuff.
No improvement on the health front, and no real prospect of it, either, so I decided today that I'm going to try to force myself to do what I've pretty much done with my autoimmune disease: Ignore it as much as humanly possible. No, that doesn't mean ignoring the meds or doctor's orders; it means that even in those moments when I literally feel like my body's trying to die on me, I'm just going to breathe my way through it, pretend it's nothing, and go about whatever of my business I can. As I've said, the way I feel on a moment-to-moment basis lately is actually so bad as to defy description, but I refuse to be held hostage to something that apparently no one can or will DX, much less fix. Of course, that means that I will still be living with constant and equally indescribable pain and fatigue, so for this week, at least, no one should expect to see or hear too much of or from me. That includes now, so the rest is cut-and-paste. Here are the links:
- Tonight's post elsewhere (just a cool shot with a reminder to myself);
- A way to buy me coffee (which actually goes to She-Wolf's & my medical bills);
- Wings's direct PayPal link;
- Wings's site, for sales, with a new and fabulous pair of earrings just posted;
- Wayfair gift cards, to replenish all the furnishings that the RV has destroyed in one way or another.
- Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. There are new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need to replace (either because the RV ruined it or because we gave it away when we had to downsize).
- Partial registry #2, from Wayfair. There are some things left on both registries that I thought by now I might be able just to buy outright, but medical bills (mine and She-Wolf's both) have to come first.
I really do need whatever vibes folks have for getting this DX'd and dealt with, because besides scaring the hell out of me 20 times a day, I'm really not good for much right now. Still, it's a gift to wake up each morning, even temps and wind chills are both below zero. Thanks, everybody, from both of us, for everything.
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