Luck, and waiting. We need to make some sales, because there's a LOT coming down the pike, so please share.

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It's been, thus far, a day of constant interruptions and derailments, and I'm having a great deal of trouble with focus. Everything will be out of its more usual order, because I can only get substantive stuff done as fast as my brain allows, and today, it's not allowing very much at all.

Part of it's simple exhaustion; I haven't had much sleep in days. Part of it's worry about Raven, and that's not going to improve, so this will be with me for a while, presumably. Part of it's the residual effects of yesterday's trip, and the stress of still not knowing anything. In theory, I might be able to know the results as early as the end of tomorrow, but I think it's more likely to be Monday, which, of course, means Tuesday this coming week, since Monday's a legal holiday.

We got very lucky on a lot of fronts yesterday. First and foremost, the weather mostly cooperated; we hit snow, sleet, slush, and fog on our way out of town, with black ice on the big hill south of the horseshoe, but the car handled it all like a champ, thanks to the [this time actual] front-end job. Santa Fe was substantially warmer and clearer, and getting around wasn't a problem. The imaging place is also extremely efficient, so even though we got there early (we left here two full hours early because we didn't know what conditions would be like, given the forecast, and killed a little time after we got to town), the check-in and initial wait were the half-four they said it would be, and while I may have been back in the imaging area for the stated 20 minutes, the scan itself probably took five. Five hours of travel, round-trip, for five minutes' worth of scanning. Now, we wait. And hope. And pray.

We also got lucky in that when we got home, the sky was stunningly beautiful (see above), and Raven was lying comfortably on the front deck waiting for us, getting to his feet immediately with a big doggy grin on his face. We are giving him the standard protocol for cancer in this context (i.e., without heroic or invasive measures, when quality of life is key), antibiotics and Prednisone twice daily, and it seems to have picked him up a bit from the other night. He was getting it already, but it apparently needed to reach a critical mass in his system. He's tired a lot, and sleeps a lot, but he's also very engaged and still very happy, so as long as we have that, it's all good. Tony was also out today to inspect the chew damage and he's going to try to get started on repairing and replacing the relevant pieces of wood next week.

And I'm going to try to stop haunting my patient portal every hour and get some work done. Maybe. I feel pretty crappy physically, but that's pretty much always the case after a trip because of my autoimmune disease anyway, and yesterday was very high-stress in a lot of ways (hell, the last two weeks have been that way), and I was operating on virtually no sleep yesterday. Today it's lots of physical pain on top of the exhaustion, and we have, supposedly, a 100% chance of major snow tonight, with something like an 80% of it continuing into tomorrow; weather changes certainly don't help with all of this, either.

But as I've said, regardless of the results, there will be much more medical stuff after this, although we don't know the form and shape it will take yet. Hopefully, something fixable, and relatively easily so. Meanwhile, all this stuff is piling up fast, so here are the links for sharing (or using, if anyone's so inclined):

• My Patreon, The Interstices (Writing Between Worlds) (and if you subscribe today you won't be billed until January 1st for December);
• Wings's site, for sales, with lots of new items posted;
• Wings's direct PayPal link;
• A way to buy me coffee (which actually goes to all of our medical bills, which continue to mount);
• Amazon wishlist, which mostly consists of animal and household stuff;
• Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. There are new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need to replace (either because the RV ruined it or because we gave it away when we had to downsize).

As I also said, Coyote is in the spirit world now, with a hole in my heart is never going away, and I'd really like not to have it grow by Raven size right now. Good vibes for Raven would be especially welcome today; we could use some for me, too. And making some sales would be helpful, because all of it's going to cost. A lot.

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