Spirit Moon before the red showed up last night. Nothing to do with wolves, or with blood, either.
No sleep last night, and that was nothing to do with the eclipse, but everything to do with an ongoing, unrelenting "episode." It's all aggravated by worry over Raven; after a good day yesterday, I thought we might lose him this morning, but not yet. He's on his bed snoozing again, but a few minutes ago he was outside chasing after a bone deep in the snow, grabbing it, tossing it up, then trotting back to his spot off the deck to chew it. I have no illusions about his condition or his chances; I just want him to be happy and comfortable the whole time he has left.
For myself, as I said, I won't know the imaging results before tomorrow at the earliest, and regardless of the results, there will be much more medical stuff after this, although we don't know the form and shape it will take yet. Hopefully, something fixable, and relatively easily so; the fear of what could be lurking is aggravating everything else. After last night? The fear has spiked, even though it never really leaves. Meanwhile, all this stuff is piling up fast, so here are the links for sharing (or using, if anyone's so inclined):
- My Patreon, The Interstices (Writing Between Worlds) (and if you subscribe today you won't be billed until January 1st for December);
- Wings's site, for sales, with lots of new items posted;
- Wings's direct PayPal link;
- A way to buy me coffee (which actually goes to all of our medical bills, which continue to mount);
- Amazon wishlist, which mostly consists of animal and household stuff;
- Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. There are new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need to replace (either because the RV ruined it or because we gave it away when we had to downsize).
As I also said, Coyote is in the spirit world now, with a hole in my heart is never going away, and I'd really like not to have it grow by Raven size right now. Good vibes for Raven are still welcome. We know it's unlikely that he has long. We just want him to be comfortable and happy for what he has left. There's nothing to be done for broken hearts.
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