Drowning.

Photo copyright Aji, 2019; all rights reserved.

Scattered snow around the peaks yesterday; snow and rain here today. And no end to the financial storms. And just enough water in the pond to drown.

I can't breathe. I can't breathe because the new meds aren't working like the old ones. I can't breathe because they still haven't figured out all the ins and outs of what nearly killed me twice over. I can't breathe because this $30,000 millstone around my neck keeps dragging me down below the surface, and I am drowning. You think, when I say it's killing me, that I'm joking? Being ironic? Indulging in hyperbole? I'm not. I am dying a little more every day from the strain; it's visible in my eyes, my hair, my skin, my soul. 

I'm running out of time, and running out of everything else with it.

Here are the links, because I have to bring in this full $30K somehow, and now:

• Wings's site, for sales, with lots of new items posted;
• Wings's direct PayPal link;
• A way to buy me coffee (which actually goes to all of our medical bills, which continue to mount);
• My Patreon, The Interstices (Writing Between Worlds) (and if you subscribe today you won't be billed until June 1st for May);
• Amazon wishlist, which mostly consists of animal and household stuff, the big one being the fly spray;
• Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. I've added two or three new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need.

I'm ecstatic to be able to forget, at least for now, about my thyroid (yes, there's still some swelling and so forth, but it's not nearly as noticeable as after the first botched biopsy). Now I have to work on the asthma/respiratory and autoimmune stuff. And most of all, I need to pay off these bills. That will go further than just about anything right now to allowing me to breathe again. Wings has two new works coming out today, in addition to the new cuff and two new pairs of earrings that I posted here yesterday. Please share the links around, offer recommendations and testimonials, consider purchases, and help me be able to breathe, literally.

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