First of the farolitos. Really disheartened tonight for a lot of reasons. Sales/shares badly needed.

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Wings got a start on holiday decorating today with the farolitos. They're only on the one side so far; front and west sides tomorrow.

Not feeling especially holiday-ish tonight. It'll pass, but right now, I'm struggling with fear and depression and anger and the knowledge that if any of the damned docs on the 10th had just LISTENED to me, we'd have had the bloodwork results a month ago, and I might not being having to worry about dying in my sleep every single night (or even in the daytime) now. I don't actually feel well at any moment of the day or night, and Amazon effing up the concentrator delivery has kept me housebound waiting for it with no word from the seller or the shipper. The bills keep pouring in (just shy of $17K, and they're not done yet), and yet I have no more of a way forward than I did on November 10th. I'll have to renew the rental tomorrow, and a portable one is, at $3-4K, simply out of reach. How we're going to ensure Darla gets to her own appointments for her cancer treatment I have no idea; the money's not there. I am just really feeling awful physically tonight, and very disheartened, too. It'll pass, so just ignore it, but PLEASE share the links below.

We need to make some sales. A lot of them. Sales are way off this year, in part due to the  terrible weather (terrible here being 60 with no snow), and in part due to the terrible situation in D.C. But sales are not just what's going to keep me alive and Wings healthy; it's going to help other folks, too. Given the circumstances, I'm leaving up the donation link, too, and the registries have some new items on then, mostly lower-priced, to replace stuff damaged by the RV or given away when we first moved into it seven years ago. So please share our links:

• Wings's direct PayPal link;
• Wings's site, for sales;
• Wayfair gift cards, to replenish all the furnishings that the RV has destroyed in one way or another.
• Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. There are new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need to replace (either because the RV ruined it or because we gave it away when we had to downsize).
• Partial registry #2, from Wayfair. Still waiting for them to resolve this fulfillment/shipping problem they have with their site. Even so, I've added some things (kitchen/dining room stuff mostly), most of which are comparatively reasonably priced. Now, it's going to be mostly odds and ends that make this place more liveable, because of the sheer volume of stuff destroyed by too many years in the RV (e.g., by the oven and stovetop, by the wiring, by the water, by the mold, etc.), or that we simply gave away seven years ago because we had no room and no place to put them and despaired of ever being able to use them again. A CHANGE ABOUT WAYFAIR:  NO MORE CROWDFUNDING. Their Web site coding is bad, and it will not permit crowdfunded items to ship. Items purchased outright arrive in two business days, but you can't even get the others out of the warehouse. I've spent the last month fighting with them about shipping the dozen or so things that folks fulfilled, and today's message was finally terse enough that they did the manual override, four whole weeks later, that I knew they could do but simply weren't bothering. But I'll be removing all the crowdfunding options. I'm supposed to keep my blood pressure down these days.

As I've also been saying, I am still catching up, and will be now for a while. But this is the holiday season, and the sales/commissions from these few weeks are what keep us alive throughout the whole long winter and spring months (to say nothing of what's in the offing medically), so please continue to share the links. And please refer folks to Wings's site (and if you have an endorsement, too, so much the better). I'll be trying, slowly but, I hope, steadily, to get caught up over the course of this week. We have some massive expenses coming down the pike, and a lot of testing yet to be done before I'm out of the woods. So please keep sharing all our links. For now, I'm just so damn grateful to be alive, to have a healthy heart, to be back home with the love of my life and our dogs, the whole world is beautiful, even in spite of my terrible depression. Thanks again, to everybody, and we love you all.

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