A visit from my girl. Also, apparently, from some sort of bug, and soon from bad weather. Sales badly needed, and shares too.

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She gave me a few distance shots today. It was purposeful on her part; she knows, somehow, what it means when I'm outside with the camera, and she runs circles around me overhead to try to help me get the shot. I'm reduced to my old camera these days, though, one without much power or flexibility, so decent ones are few and far between.

Today's appointment got rescheduled for Tuesday, but now we're going to have to reschedule it again, most likely, because the next two days are supposed to bring bad weather. Well, "bad" in the sense of not wanting to drive down the Gorge in it; very good weather for the land, and I hope we get it. If the clouds on all sides right now are any indication, it's on the way. 

Of course, the wind and the change in the weather is screwing with my body and my pain levels in very unpleasant ways. Not helping my chest much, either, nor is the scratchy throat and intermittent cough I've developed since midday yesterday. Too much time in places where there are sick people, and with the dangerous state of my chest right now, I can't afford to get that kind of sick. So I've been trying to take it as easy as possible today, but that's not easy when the work has to get done and I'm slower than ever at being able to do it. Like last night, all the rest is cut-and-paste, because my brain is too tired to focus enough to change it. Suffice to say that we need to make some sales, and I need to get the site monetized.

I'm setting two separate goals, as outlined below, because they're both dunning me steadily now. The overall goal is my $25K+ in emergency medical bills. I've been trying to raise an initial $1,700 to take care of two specific bills: the local ambulance and one hospitalist's fee. We're $145 of the way toward it. Those are now covered (thank you, thank you again). The next goal is two-fold: One is the cost of the ambulance when they transferred me down to Albuquerque, which is $2K; the other is one of the Lovelace doctors, which is $1,500. That's $3,500 total, and the next phase of all this with regard to the new platform. Then I can turn my attention to the really big ones, which are the hospital bills themselves (Lovelace in particular is going to be bad, because, well, cardiac cath). A caveat: I have a lot of kinks to get worked out yet, but PayPal is now theoretically linked to the progress meter on the site. I say "theoretically," because I've just discovered that I apparently have to set up at least one other page to make the subscription "purchase" possible. Eventually, if you subscribe via PayPal (it's a monthly thing like Patreon), it will show, although for now the only way to do it is to hit the PayPal "Subscribe" button. I'm hoping to get that figured out and fixed tomorrow. I also need to figure out how to pin it to the main page, so for now, the only way to access it is here. Please share this link around on social media and elsewhere. I still need to raise the $3,500 as fast as possible, because there are thousands' worth of hospital bills stacked up behind it. It also means that we need sales and I need to get my subscription platform up and running (and you can still subscribe via PayPal even now). So here are the links: 

• Tonight's post elsewhere (my girl, and yes, she does know me that well);
• A way to buy me coffee (which actually goes to She-Wolf's & my medical bills, and now Wings's too);
• Wings's direct PayPal link;
• Wings's site, for sales;
• Amazon wishlist, which mostly consists of supplies for She-Wolf and food for the half-feral pack;
• Wayfair gift cards, to replenish all the furnishings that the RV has destroyed in one way or another.
• Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. There are new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need to replace (either because the RV ruined it or because we gave it away when we had to downsize).
• Partial registry #2, from Wayfair. There are some things left on both registries that I thought by now I might be able just to buy outright, but medical bills (mine and She-Wolf's both) have to come first.

Please check out the new platform, share the links, get your friends to participate. I've got a long road ahead of me, just in terms of diagnosis and, I hope, eventually treatment. Being able to pay off the medical bills will go a long way toward keeping me as healthy as possible in the meantime. Thanks, everybody, from both of us.

All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2018; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.

Cold and windy and tired. Sales and shares badly needed.

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Cricket, playing solo King of the Hill, with that lop-ear thing going. Still the most fearful of the bunch, but he's getting closer, if not yet willing to let us get near him. He's bonded with She-Wolf, though, who I think he regards as a surrogate mother.

Everything is cold, windy, and tired. I can't really function tonight. Tomorrow's appointment has been bumped to Tuesday, when it's supposed to be messy weather. Meanwhile, the stress of everything else is killing me, the bills, the inability to get things working on the new site, the constant shifts in scheduling, and most of all, the not knowing what this is and whether it's going to turn out to be really bad. All the rest is cut-and-paste, because my brain is too tired to focus enough to change it. Suffice to say that we need to make some sales, and I need to get the site monetized.

I'm setting two separate goals, as outlined below, because they're both dunning me steadily now. The overall goal is my $25K+ in emergency medical bills. I've been trying to raise an initial $1,700 to take care of two specific bills: the local ambulance and one hospitalist's fee. We're $145 of the way toward it. Those are now covered (thank you, thank you again). The next goal is two-fold: One is the cost of the ambulance when they transferred me down to Albuquerque, which is $2K; the other is one of the Lovelace doctors, which is $1,500. That's $3,500 total, and the next phase of all this with regard to the new platform. Then I can turn my attention to the really big ones, which are the hospital bills themselves (Lovelace in particular is going to be bad, because, well, cardiac cath). A caveat: I have a lot of kinks to get worked out yet, but PayPal is now theoretically linked to the progress meter on the site. I say "theoretically," because I've just discovered that I apparently have to set up at least one other page to make the subscription "purchase" possible. Eventually, if you subscribe via PayPal (it's a monthly thing like Patreon), it will show, although for now the only way to do it is to hit the PayPal "Subscribe" button. I'm hoping to get that figured out and fixed tomorrow. I also need to figure out how to pin it to the main page, so for now, the only way to access it is here. Please share this link around on social media and elsewhere. I still need to raise the $3,500 as fast as possible, because there are thousands' worth of hospital bills stacked up behind it. It also means that we need sales and I need to get my subscription platform up and running (and you can still subscribe via PayPal even now). So here are the links: 

• Tonight's post elsewhere (falls in the memoir category, and doesn't need any commentary);
• A way to buy me coffee (which actually goes to She-Wolf's & my medical bills, and now Wings's too);
• Wings's direct PayPal link;
• Wings's site, for sales;
• Amazon wishlist, which mostly consists of supplies for She-Wolf and food for the half-feral pack;
• Wayfair gift cards, to replenish all the furnishings that the RV has destroyed in one way or another.
• Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. There are new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need to replace (either because the RV ruined it or because we gave it away when we had to downsize).
• Partial registry #2, from Wayfair. There are some things left on both registries that I thought by now I might be able just to buy outright, but medical bills (mine and She-Wolf's both) have to come first.

Please check out the new platform, share the links, get your friends to participate. I've got a long road ahead of me, just in terms of diagnosis and, I hope, eventually treatment. Being able to pay off the medical bills will go a long way toward keeping me as healthy as possible in the meantime. Thanks, everybody, from both of us.

All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2018; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.

Rain and wind, and a lot of stress and expense coming up. Sales and shares badly needed.

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One in several breaks between various storms today. Spring is most definitely here: We've gone from clouds to rain to sun to more clouds to wind to more rain to more sun to heavy rain to cold wind, with snow dusting the peaks, of course. Not enough to show, or even stick around, but it was there briefly. Now it's brilliantly sunny and windy and very cold again. We'll take the rain where we can get it, at this point.

Schedule completely upended again today, with Wings's appointment rescheduled. I had said seven appointments, plus two rounds of testing; actually, it was originally eight, plus the tests, but I whacked one of next week's for now (the one I'd forgotten about, because I thought I'd already canceled it). I don't think any form of bodywork, no matter how ordinarily therapeutic, is a good idea right now until the imaging is done. [It was supposed to be some esophageal work, but . . . no. Not until I know what's going on in my chest, because I can't afford to have them be wrong and do irreparable harm.]

I hope something shows up, seriously, because while on days like today my autoimmune pain is in hyperdrive, this chest pain and it's other attendant symptoms operate on a whole other scale entirely. As I've been saying, I have to find a way to deal with this level of pain and fatigue and, yes, fear, while everyone else effs around with no sense of urgency whatsoever, and I haven't figured out those pieces of this yet. I've got more work to do tonight, a LOT of work lined up for this weekend, and I have GOT to get to the time to try to resolve this platform issue, because I really, really need to start getting these medical bills paid. The stress is killing me. All the rest is cut-and-paste, because my brain is too tired to focus enough to change it. Suffice to say that we need to make some sales, and I need to get the site monetized.

I'm setting two separate goals, as outlined below, because they're both dunning me steadily now. The overall goal is my $25K+ in emergency medical bills. I've been trying to raise an initial $1,700 to take care of two specific bills: the local ambulance and one hospitalist's fee. We're $145 of the way toward it. Those are now covered (thank you, thank you again). The next goal is two-fold: One is the cost of the ambulance when they transferred me down to Albuquerque, which is $2K; the other is one of the Lovelace doctors, which is $1,500. That's $3,500 total, and the next phase of all this with regard to the new platform. Then I can turn my attention to the really big ones, which are the hospital bills themselves (Lovelace in particular is going to be bad, because, well, cardiac cath). A caveat: I have a lot of kinks to get worked out yet, but PayPal is now theoretically linked to the progress meter on the site. I say "theoretically," because I've just discovered that I apparently have to set up at least one other page to make the subscription "purchase" possible. Eventually, if you subscribe via PayPal (it's a monthly thing like Patreon), it will show, although for now the only way to do it is to hit the PayPal "Subscribe" button. I'm hoping to get that figured out and fixed tomorrow. I also need to figure out how to pin it to the main page, so for now, the only way to access it is here. Please share this link around on social media and elsewhere. I still need to raise the $3,500 as fast as possible, because there are thousands' worth of hospital bills stacked up behind it. It also means that we need sales and I need to get my subscription platform up and running (and you can still subscribe via PayPal even now). So here are the links: 

• Tonight's post elsewhere (a timely reminder, given tomorrow's events);
• A way to buy me coffee (which actually goes to She-Wolf's & my medical bills, and now Wings's too);
• Wings's direct PayPal link;
• Wings's site, for sales;
• Amazon wishlist, which mostly consists of supplies for She-Wolf and food for the half-feral pack;
• Wayfair gift cards, to replenish all the furnishings that the RV has destroyed in one way or another.
• Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. There are new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need to replace (either because the RV ruined it or because we gave it away when we had to downsize).
• Partial registry #2, from Wayfair. There are some things left on both registries that I thought by now I might be able just to buy outright, but medical bills (mine and She-Wolf's both) have to come first.

Please check out the new platform, share the links, get your friends to participate. I've got a long road ahead of me, just in terms of diagnosis and, I hope, eventually treatment. Being able to pay off the medical bills will go a long way toward keeping me as healthy as possible in the meantime. Thanks, everybody, from both of us.

All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2018; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.

Between storms and a momentary reprieve, but it all ramps up again first thing tomorrow. Sales and shares very much needed.

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Today put us between storms in more ways than one. First off, I got a reprieve from the physically scary stuff; the doc had an emergency, and her office called about an hour before I was supposed to be there. My concern already (I mean, beyond the pain I've been told to expect from it) was that if the underlying condition it's designed to treat turns out not to be at issue for me, what damage might it do? So we're going to reschedule after at least the first round of imaging is complete. 

Today it was initially brilliantly sunny and calm, with a high past seventy, and it was a wonderful reprieve. By late afternoon, the winds had risen and the clouds had moved in, but I got a little time outside in shorts and without sleeves, so I don't look quite so ashy-pale and like death warmed over. Tomorrow is Wings again, bright and early. Sunday is both of us, in a sense, but mostly me. Next week is a bunch more stuff, and it's all crazybusy and crazyexpensive, so as I've been saying, expect mostly just the minimum from me the rest of this week and into next week, all the more so because of my pain levels right now; this chest pain is something else. And as I said last night, I have to find a way to deal with this level of pain and fatigue and, yes, fear, while everyone else effs around with no sense of urgency whatsoever, and I haven't figured out those pieces of this yet. I've got more work to do tonight, so the rest is cut-and-paste. And I really do need to get to the time to try to resolve this platform issue, because I really, really need to start getting these medical bills paid. The stress is killing me.

I'm setting two separate goals, as outlined below, because they're both dunning me steadily now. The overall goal is my $25K+ in emergency medical bills. I've been trying to raise an initial $1,700 to take care of two specific bills: the local ambulance and one hospitalist's fee. We're $145 of the way toward it. Those are now covered (thank you, thank you again). The next goal is two-fold: One is the cost of the ambulance when they transferred me down to Albuquerque, which is $2K; the other is one of the Lovelace doctors, which is $1,500. That's $3,500 total, and the next phase of all this with regard to the new platform. Then I can turn my attention to the really big ones, which are the hospital bills themselves (Lovelace in particular is going to be bad, because, well, cardiac cath). A caveat: I have a lot of kinks to get worked out yet, but PayPal is now theoretically linked to the progress meter on the site. I say "theoretically," because I've just discovered that I apparently have to set up at least one other page to make the subscription "purchase" possible. Eventually, if you subscribe via PayPal (it's a monthly thing like Patreon), it will show, although for now the only way to do it is to hit the PayPal "Subscribe" button. I'm hoping to get that figured out and fixed tomorrow. I also need to figure out how to pin it to the main page, so for now, the only way to access it is here. Please share this link around on social media and elsewhere. I still need to raise the $3,500 as fast as possible, because there are thousands' worth of hospital bills stacked up behind it. It also means that we need sales and I need to get my subscription platform up and running (and you can still subscribe via PayPal even now). So here are the links: 

• Tonight's post elsewhere (the biggest red-tail I've ever seen, impossibly high and yet hovering close);
• A way to buy me coffee (which actually goes to She-Wolf's & my medical bills, and now Wings's too);
• Wings's direct PayPal link;
• Wings's site, for sales;
• Amazon wishlist, which mostly consists of supplies for She-Wolf and food for the half-feral pack;
• Wayfair gift cards, to replenish all the furnishings that the RV has destroyed in one way or another.
• Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. There are new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need to replace (either because the RV ruined it or because we gave it away when we had to downsize).
• Partial registry #2, from Wayfair. There are some things left on both registries that I thought by now I might be able just to buy outright, but medical bills (mine and She-Wolf's both) have to come first.

Please check out the new platform, share the links, get your friends to participate. I've got a long road ahead of me, just in terms of diagnosis and, I hope, eventually treatment. Being able to pay off the medical bills will go a long way toward keeping me as healthy as possible in the meantime. Thanks, everybody, from both of us.

All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2018; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.

Good news, as well as scary stuff upcoming. Sales and shares very much needed right now.

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It's good to come home and see where you've been, and it's all golden light.

Actually, it's just good to come home, period. Today was our first trip out of town, if memory serves, where we came home to the house instead of the RV. It's amazing.

The trip was a success; Wings had his long-rescheduled echo today, and aside from a few small things most likely mostly related to the natural aging process, his heart's still in good shape. What this means is that his hypertension is not due to any underlying heart problem, which is wonderful news. But we still have to get his medication protocol adjusted properly, and that appointment is coming up fast. The cardiologist at NMHI said that, barring any changes, he only needs to see him a year from now for a standard check-up, so if my body would permit it, I'd be dancing right now. [The cardiologist also thought I was a nurse practitioner, LOL. If only. I told him no, I'd just absorbed a lot having had to be caregiver for multiple elders.]

Now, of course, we're both wiped out; the trip is a lot harder on us than it used to be. I couldn't have risked making it had we not had the portable oxygen concentrator, and sure enough, I needed it on the way home. I'm wearing the cannula now, too. Thank you once again to everyone who made it possible, because today was an object lesson in just how essential it is for me now.

I'll be scarce the rest of the week, since between us we have appointments tomorrow, Friday, and Sunday, and likely a couple more next week. I'm up first thing tomorrow, and this one scares me. The practitioner has told me that severe pain is involved (if it turns out to be what they're going to try to treat). Expect mostly just the minimum from me the rest of this week and into next week, all the more so because of my pain levels right now; this chest pain is something else. And as I said last night, I have to find a way to deal with this level of pain and fatigue and, yes, fear, while everyone else effs around with no sense of urgency whatsoever, and I haven't figured out those pieces of this yet. I've got more work to do tonight, so the rest is cut-and-paste. And I really do need to get to the time to try to resolve this platform issue, because I really, really need to start getting these medical bills paid. The stress is killing me.

I'm setting two separate goals, as outlined below, because they're both dunning me steadily now. The overall goal is my $25K+ in emergency medical bills. I've been trying to raise an initial $1,700 to take care of two specific bills: the local ambulance and one hospitalist's fee. We're $145 of the way toward it. Those are now covered (thank you, thank you again). The next goal is two-fold: One is the cost of the ambulance when they transferred me down to Albuquerque, which is $2K; the other is one of the Lovelace doctors, which is $1,500. That's $3,500 total, and the next phase of all this with regard to the new platform. Then I can turn my attention to the really big ones, which are the hospital bills themselves (Lovelace in particular is going to be bad, because, well, cardiac cath). A caveat: I have a lot of kinks to get worked out yet, but PayPal is now theoretically linked to the progress meter on the site. I say "theoretically," because I've just discovered that I apparently have to set up at least one other page to make the subscription "purchase" possible. Eventually, if you subscribe via PayPal (it's a monthly thing like Patreon), it will show, although for now the only way to do it is to hit the PayPal "Subscribe" button. I'm hoping to get that figured out and fixed tomorrow. I also need to figure out how to pin it to the main page, so for now, the only way to access it is here. Please share this link around on social media and elsewhere. I still need to raise the $3,500 as fast as possible, because there are thousands' worth of hospital bills stacked up behind it. It also means that we need sales and I need to get my subscription platform up and running (and you can still subscribe via PayPal even now). So here are the links: 

• Tonight's post elsewhere (It's not as impossible as it feels sometimes);
• A way to buy me coffee (which actually goes to She-Wolf's & my medical bills, and now Wings's too);
• Wings's direct PayPal link;
• Wings's site, for sales;
• Amazon wishlist, which mostly consists of supplies for She-Wolf and food for the half-feral pack;
• Wayfair gift cards, to replenish all the furnishings that the RV has destroyed in one way or another.
• Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. There are new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need to replace (either because the RV ruined it or because we gave it away when we had to downsize).
• Partial registry #2, from Wayfair. There are some things left on both registries that I thought by now I might be able just to buy outright, but medical bills (mine and She-Wolf's both) have to come first.

Please check out the new platform, share the links, get your friends to participate. I've got a long road ahead of me, just in terms of diagnosis and, I hope, eventually treatment. Being able to pay off the medical bills will go a long way toward keeping me as healthy as possible in the meantime. Thanks, everybody, from both of us.

All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2018; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.

Spring birds. Medical stuff ramping up hard and fast. Sales/shares badly needed.

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Our mated pair of ravens. Talk about putting words in your partner's mouth.

Hectic, frazzled, confused day today. In other words, exactly what the rest of the week will be. One bit of progress on the house: Tony's working on the jamb and trim for that round window in the hallway; he called to arrange for the type of wood he needs for one part of it. They'll get back to the cabinetry in a couple of weeks.

Tomorrow, I'll be scarce; medical appointments and stuff. Also Thursday, Friday, and Sunday, so expect mostly just the minimum form me the rest of this week and into next week. All the more so because of my pain levels right now; this chest pain is something else. And as I said last night, I have to find a way to deal with this level of pain and fatigue and, yes, fear, while everyone else effs around with no sense of urgency whatsoever, and I haven't figured out those pieces of this yet. I've got more work to do tonight, so the rest is cut-and-paste.

I'm setting two separate goals, as outlined below, because they're both dunning me steadily now. The overall goal is my $25K+ in emergency medical bills. I've been trying to raise an initial $1,700 to take care of two specific bills: the local ambulance and one hospitalist's fee. We're $145 of the way toward it. Those are now covered (thank you, thank you again). The next goal is two-fold: One is the cost of the ambulance when they transferred me down to Albuquerque, which is $2K; the other is one of the Lovelace doctors, which is $1,500. That's $3,500 total, and the next phase of all this with regard to the new platform. Then I can turn my attention to the really big ones, which are the hospital bills themselves (Lovelace in particular is going to be bad, because, well, cardiac cath). A caveat: I have a lot of kinks to get worked out yet, but PayPal is now theoretically linked to the progress meter on the site. I say "theoretically," because I've just discovered that I apparently have to set up at least one other page to make the subscription "purchase" possible. Eventually, if you subscribe via PayPal (it's a monthly thing like Patreon), it will show, although for now the only way to do it is to hit the PayPal "Subscribe" button. I'm hoping to get that figured out and fixed tomorrow. I also need to figure out how to pin it to the main page, so for now, the only way to access it is here. Please share this link around on social media and elsewhere. I still need to raise the $3,500 as fast as possible, because there are thousands' worth of hospital bills stacked up behind it. It also means that we need sales and I need to get my subscription platform up and running (and you can still subscribe via PayPal even now). So here are the links: 

• Tonight's post elsewhere (how to dress for the equinox);
• A way to buy me coffee (which actually goes to She-Wolf's & my medical bills, and now Wings's too);
• Wings's direct PayPal link;
• Wings's site, for sales;
• Amazon wishlist, which mostly consists of food for the half-feral pack;
• Wayfair gift cards, to replenish all the furnishings that the RV has destroyed in one way or another.
• Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. There are new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need to replace (either because the RV ruined it or because we gave it away when we had to downsize).
• Partial registry #2, from Wayfair. There are some things left on both registries that I thought by now I might be able just to buy outright, but medical bills (mine and She-Wolf's both) have to come first.

Please check out the new platform, share the links, get your friends to participate. I've got a long road ahead of me, just in terms of diagnosis and, I hope, eventually treatment. Being able to pay off the medical bills will go a long way toward keeping me as healthy as possible in the meantime. Thanks, everybody, from both of us.

All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2018; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.

Storms, passing and otherwise. We need sales (and shares) badly.

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A passing storm, far too far away to do us any good. From here, it looked like the skull of some great spirit buffalo. Unfortunately, this week is going to filled with storms of a different sort, and not mostly not the useful kind.

This is going to be a very tough week, just based on appointments alone. I will not be around much as a result. I already have too few hours in the day even to begin to do all I need to do. I also got another in-my-face reminder today of how violently successful erasure is, and how invisible I am to the dominant culture, and my confidence is at a spectacularly low ebb right now. I have more than enough to keep depression sucking me into its undertow; it doesn't need any additional help, thanks.

I need time to work, I need to have a brain functional enough to get this damn platform fixed and also functional, I need to get the stress of the medical bills off before it kills me anyway. I have none of those things, and no likelihood of that changing anytime soon, so I have to keep putting one foot in front of the other. Unfortunately, that leaves me no energy (literally; walking, standing, bending over to pick up something all wipe me out right now) for anything else, so the rest is cut-and-paste. I have to find a way to deal with this level of pain and fatigue and, yes, fear, while everyone else effs around with no sense of urgency whatsoever, and I haven't figured out those pieces of this yet.

I'm setting two separate goals, as outlined below, because they're both dunning me steadily now. The overall goal is my $25K+ in emergency medical bills. I've been trying to raise an initial $1,700 to take care of two specific bills: the local ambulance and one hospitalist's fee. We're $145 of the way toward it. Those are now covered (thank you, thank you again). The next goal is two-fold: One is the cost of the ambulance when they transferred me down to Albuquerque, which is $2K; the other is one of the Lovelace doctors, which is $1,500. That's $3,500 total, and the next phase of all this with regard to the new platform. Then I can turn my attention to the really big ones, which are the hospital bills themselves (Lovelace in particular is going to be bad, because, well, cardiac cath). A caveat: I have a lot of kinks to get worked out yet, but PayPal is now theoretically linked to the progress meter on the site. I say "theoretically," because I've just discovered that I apparently have to set up at least one other page to make the subscription "purchase" possible. Eventually, if you subscribe via PayPal (it's a monthly thing like Patreon), it will show, although for now the only way to do it is to hit the PayPal "Subscribe" button. I'm hoping to get that figured out and fixed tomorrow. I also need to figure out how to pin it to the main page, so for now, the only way to access it is here. Please share this link around on social media and elsewhere. I still need to raise the $3,500 as fast as possible, because there are thousands' worth of hospital bills stacked up behind it. It also means that we need sales and I need to get my subscription platform up and running (and you can still subscribe via PayPal even now). So here are the links: 

• Tonight's post elsewhere (for as long as I have, I'll keep doing it);
• A way to buy me coffee (which actually goes to She-Wolf's & my medical bills, and now Wings's too);
• Wings's direct PayPal link;
• Wings's site, for sales;
• Amazon wishlist, which mostly consists of food for the half-feral pack;
• Wayfair gift cards, to replenish all the furnishings that the RV has destroyed in one way or another.
• Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. There are new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need to replace (either because the RV ruined it or because we gave it away when we had to downsize).
• Partial registry #2, from Wayfair. There are some things left on both registries that I thought by now I might be able just to buy outright, but medical bills (mine and She-Wolf's both) have to come first.

Please check out the new platform, share the links, get your friends to participate. I've got a long road ahead of me, just in terms of diagnosis and, I hope, eventually treatment. Being able to pay off the medical bills will go a long way toward keeping me as healthy as possible in the meantime. Thanks, everybody, from both of us.

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Storms of various sorts. A lot of expense coming up fast. Sales and shares (and time) badly needed.

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That was 10 AM. This was noon:

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It's been snowing intermittently for a while, accompanied part of the time by gale-force winds. At least now we don't have to worry about our "home" literally being picked up and blown over in the storm. 

It looks like there's more on the way, if the newly-darkened cloudbank to the west is any indication.

This weekend has been mostly a loss in terms of getting anything accomplished. Most of that is simple pain and fatigue on my part, but it's also not being able to get any uninterrupted time to myself to work, and certainly not being able to get the IgnitionDeck platform functional. I'm three months behind on that, and tearing my hair out, because I am quite literally running out of time. [Unfortunately, my unsolved and unresolved health issues mean that the possibility of quite literally running out of time is never far from my mind.]

The next two weeks are going to be hell. I added up all the appointments: seven definitely-scheduled medical appointments in a two-week period just between Wings and me. If all goes as expected, there will be two more in roughly that same time frame for me, each involving testing. Getting out of this month is going to cost us a fortune, on top the fortune we already owe.

As I said last night, I've also just shelled out for another doctor's appointment and two scrips totaling $200 (the scrips, not the visit; that's another $150 on top of it). And the bill collectors never rest, so I don't, either. The rest is cut and paste, because dammit, I'm beat, and I've still got a lot of work ahead of me tonight. Please share. And I still need IgnitionDeck expertise, if anyone's got it, and yes, I'll pay for it.

I'm setting two separate goals, as outlined below, because they're both dunning me steadily now. The overall goal is my $25K+ in emergency medical bills. I've been trying to raise an initial $1,700 to take care of two specific bills: the local ambulance and one hospitalist's fee. We're $145 of the way toward it. Those are now covered (thank you, thank you again). The next goal is two-fold: One is the cost of the ambulance when they transferred me down to Albuquerque, which is $2K; the other is one of the Lovelace doctors, which is $1,500. That's $3,500 total, and the next phase of all this with regard to the new platform. Then I can turn my attention to the really big ones, which are the hospital bills themselves (Lovelace in particular is going to be bad, because, well, cardiac cath). A caveat: I have a lot of kinks to get worked out yet, but PayPal is now theoretically linked to the progress meter on the site. I say "theoretically," because I've just discovered that I apparently have to set up at least one other page to make the subscription "purchase" possible. Eventually, if you subscribe via PayPal (it's a monthly thing like Patreon), it will show, although for now the only way to do it is to hit the PayPal "Subscribe" button. I'm hoping to get that figured out and fixed tomorrow. I also need to figure out how to pin it to the main page, so for now, the only way to access it is here. Please share this link around on social media and elsewhere. I still need to raise the $3,500 as fast as possible, because there are thousands' worth of hospital bills stacked up behind it. It also means that we need sales and I need to get my subscription platform up and running (and you can still subscribe via PayPal even now). So here are the links: 

• Tonight's post elsewhere (you have to understand this to understand life);
• A way to buy me coffee (which actually goes to She-Wolf's & my medical bills, and now Wings's too);
• Wings's direct PayPal link;
• Wings's site, for sales;
• Amazon wishlist, which mostly consists of food for the half-feral pack;
• Wayfair gift cards, to replenish all the furnishings that the RV has destroyed in one way or another.
• Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. There are new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need to replace (either because the RV ruined it or because we gave it away when we had to downsize).
• Partial registry #2, from Wayfair. There are some things left on both registries that I thought by now I might be able just to buy outright, but medical bills (mine and She-Wolf's both) have to come first.

Please check out the new platform, share the links, get your friends to participate. I've got a long road ahead of me, just in terms of diagnosis and, I hope, eventually treatment. Being able to pay off the medical bills will go a long way toward keeping me as healthy as possible in the meantime. Thanks, everybody, from both of us.

All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2018; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.

Storm looming; lots more appointments and tests and bills, too. Sales and shares badly needed.

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They say there's a storm on the way. That's what it looks like now, though.  And yeah, the sky really is that blue.

Another Saturday shot, and thanks to errands and other issues, I got almost nothing done. This not being able to breathe, getting winded at the slightest exertion, is for the birds. Well, not the birds, because they're sister spirits, but I've about had it. But it's not getting better anytime soon, and certainly not before the next round of tests.

And that is going to be both time-consuming and expensive. Something like nine appointments between the two of us in a two-week period (plus She-Wolf's next follow-up in there somewhere). There will be testing for both of us; I've also just shelled out for another doctor's appointment and two scrips totaling $200 (the scrips, not the visit; that's another $150 on top of it). And the bill collectors never rest, so I don't, either. The rest is cut and paste, because dammit, I'm beat, and I've still got a lot of work ahead of me tonight.

I'm setting two separate goals, as outlined below, because they're both dunning me steadily now. The overall goal is my $25K+ in emergency medical bills. I've been trying to raise an initial $1,700 to take care of two specific bills: the local ambulance and one hospitalist's fee. We're $145 of the way toward it. Those are now covered (thank you, thank you again). The next goal is two-fold: One is the cost of the ambulance when they transferred me down to Albuquerque, which is $2K; the other is one of the Lovelace doctors, which is $1,500. That's $3,500 total, and the next phase of all this with regard to the new platform. Then I can turn my attention to the really big ones, which are the hospital bills themselves (Lovelace in particular is going to be bad, because, well, cardiac cath). A caveat: I have a lot of kinks to get worked out yet, but PayPal is now theoretically linked to the progress meter on the site. I say "theoretically," because I've just discovered that I apparently have to set up at least one other page to make the subscription "purchase" possible. Eventually, if you subscribe via PayPal (it's a monthly thing like Patreon), it will show, although for now the only way to do it is to hit the PayPal "Subscribe" button. I'm hoping to get that figured out and fixed tomorrow. I also need to figure out how to pin it to the main page, so for now, the only way to access it is here. Please share this link around on social media and elsewhere. I still need to raise the $3,500 as fast as possible, because there are thousands' worth of hospital bills stacked up behind it. It also means that we need sales and I need to get my subscription platform up and running (and you can still subscribe via PayPal even now). So here are the links: 

• Tonight's post elsewhere (this is exactly how I live);
• A way to buy me coffee (which actually goes to She-Wolf's & my medical bills, and now Wings's too);
• Wings's direct PayPal link;
• Wings's site, for sales;
• Amazon wishlist, which mostly consists of food for the half-feral pack;
• Wayfair gift cards, to replenish all the furnishings that the RV has destroyed in one way or another.
• Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. There are new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need to replace (either because the RV ruined it or because we gave it away when we had to downsize).
• Partial registry #2, from Wayfair. There are some things left on both registries that I thought by now I might be able just to buy outright, but medical bills (mine and She-Wolf's both) have to come first.

Please check out the new platform, share the links, get your friends to participate. I've got a long road ahead of me, just in terms of diagnosis and, I hope, eventually treatment. Being able to pay off the medical bills will go a long way toward keeping me as healthy as possible in the meantime. Thanks, everybody, from both of us.

All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2018; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.

A tiny burial, and a big appointment (with a lot more expensive ones lined up). Sales and shares very much needed.

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Dear god, what a day. It ends now with a blinding headache and sheer exhaustion.

We buried Opal today. She didn't go alone, unfortunately; when Wings swept the snow off the deck, he found a tiny male Cassin's finch that had apparently hit the window and fallen, stunned, and frozen to death beneath the snow. We sent them on their journey together, in the usual way.

The whole morning was fraught, thanks to the snow and the mud and the bitterly cold wind and the need to bury small spirits and feed too many starving ones. I couldn't really start anything substantive, since I had a midday doctor's appointment, and that took a lot longer than anticipated. We have a new plan of action (and a hell of a lot of new and expensive appointments). I said earlier, elsewhere, that between Wings and me, we have six or seven appointments stacked up over the next two weeks, but I forgot about the testing, so it's actually eight or nine ::cringes at the expense::. We are now proceeding on the assumption that there may be multiple things going on here that just all happened to come together in a particularly unpleasant way in the left side of my chest last November (and continue to do so). So now it becomes a process of elimination, and we're beginning with the possibility of a hiatal hernia somehow aggravating both my esophagus (an expected effect) and my coronary artery (frankly bizarre). At any rate, I'll be going for an ultrasound soon, and also for a specialized chiropractic appointment designed specifically to deal with such hernias. If that is indeed a part of this, we should know in the course of the latter visit. 

Or not.

Depending on the results of those two, I will probably wind up down in Santa Fe for a CT scan (less expensive there than here, with a better team). The idea is to do the less expensive stuff first and see if we can isolate anything; if not, then we go looking for other enlargements or herniations or, Spirit forbid, masses. Along with a few other things, but those are the big ones for now. I honestly no longer know what to hope for; they're all terrible. And while I'm happy to have some forward movement, I frankly feel terrible, too, so the rest is cut-and-paste.

I'm setting two separate goals, as outlined below, because they're both dunning me steadily now. The overall goal is my $25K+ in emergency medical bills. I've been trying to raise an initial $1,700 to take care of two specific bills: the local ambulance and one hospitalist's fee. We're $145 of the way toward it. Those are now covered (thank you, thank you again). The next goal is two-fold: One is the cost of the ambulance when they transferred me down to Albuquerque, which is $2K; the other is one of the Lovelace doctors, which is $1,500. That's $3,500 total, and the next phase of all this with regard to the new platform. Then I can turn my attention to the really big ones, which are the hospital bills themselves (Lovelace in particular is going to be bad, because, well, cardiac cath). A caveat: I have a lot of kinks to get worked out yet, but PayPal is now theoretically linked to the progress meter on the site. I say "theoretically," because I've just discovered that I apparently have to set up at least one other page to make the subscription "purchase" possible. Eventually, if you subscribe via PayPal (it's a monthly thing like Patreon), it will show, although for now the only way to do it is to hit the PayPal "Subscribe" button. I'm hoping to get that figured out and fixed tomorrow. I also need to figure out how to pin it to the main page, so for now, the only way to access it is here. Please share this link around on social media and elsewhere. I still need to raise the $3,500 as fast as possible, because there are thousands' worth of hospital bills stacked up behind it. It also means that we need sales and I need to get my subscription platform up and running (and you can still subscribe via PayPal even now). So here are the links: 

• Tonight's post elsewhere (the way, even when our perspective is too shot to see it);
• A way to buy me coffee (which actually goes to She-Wolf's & my medical bills, and now Wings's too);
• Wings's direct PayPal link;
• Wings's site, for sales;
• Amazon wishlist, which mostly consists of food for the half-feral pack;
• Wayfair gift cards, to replenish all the furnishings that the RV has destroyed in one way or another.
• Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. There are new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need to replace (either because the RV ruined it or because we gave it away when we had to downsize).
• Partial registry #2, from Wayfair. There are some things left on both registries that I thought by now I might be able just to buy outright, but medical bills (mine and She-Wolf's both) have to come first.

Please check out the new platform, share the links, get your friends to participate. I've got a long road ahead of me, just in terms of diagnosis and, I hope, eventually treatment. Being able to pay off the medical bills will go a long way toward keeping me as healthy as possible in the meantime. Thanks, everybody, from both of us.

All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2018; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.