Friday, February 23, 2018

No progress on any front. Sales desperately needed, which means shares are, too.

Photo copyright Aji, 2018; all rights reserved.

She's been here off and on all day, watching over me. I've needed it today.

Bitterly cold winds, no progress on any front, fear for the next few weeks settling in hard (especially since I now live with fear all day every day, for simple survival). The crew was supposed to be back next week (already two months late); now we have to call them all and tell them not to come. Indefinitely. Which means losing them to other jobs. In the meantime, I'm worried about making it out of the next month alive. I can't think about that too much, and I'm too tired for anything more. The rest is cut and paste, because I said last night, I have so much to do and I'm so far behind.

Still working on the platform launch. It may happen sooner, but given my breathing and brain fog issues and how slow I am (and how overloaded, as a result), I'm shooting for March first. That said, the first goal is to retire two specific medical bills totaling $1,676 (oh, hell, make it a flat $1,700; PayPal takes out major fees), so it's still possible to kick in in advance via the donate button here. It's not even a tenth of what I owe thus far for the hospitalizations and heart cath and other testing, but it's a start.

For the rest of it — basic living expenses to get through the winter, to say nothing of bringing the crew back part-time to make the stairs safe and finish the cabinets and the rest of the house — what we need are SALES. We had reason to believe that we would be okay, at least for a good long while, but that has not materialized, so I am back to pushing sales every second I'm able, even as I try to cadge moments to work on these other projects. And I am completely worn out, so the rest is cut-and-paste.  

Please. Spread the word. Valentine's Day's gone, but people have birthdays, anniversaries, I-love-you days; there'll be other holidays and seasons coming up before you know it. Please spread all of our links around on FB and Twitter and other social media, via e-mail and word-of-mouth, to your family and friends and colleagues and whoever. The O2 issue is now solved, but there are all the ongoing regular expenses, the astronomical medical expenses, and of course, someday we'd like to be able to get the house finished. I have no hope of that happening anytime soon; I don't know how we're going to get through the rest of this winter, given current circumstances. So here are the links: 
  • Tonight's post elsewhere (what I need to do, when the depression takes over);
  • A way to buy me coffee (which actually goes to She-Wolf's & my medical bills);
  • Wings's direct PayPal link;
  • Wings's site, for sales;
  • Wayfair gift cards, to replenish all the furnishings that the RV has destroyed in one way or another.
  • Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. There are new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need to replace (either because the RV ruined it or because we gave it away when we had to downsize).
  • Partial registry #2, from Wayfair. There are some things left on both registries that I thought by now I might be able just to buy outright, but medical bills (mine and She-Wolf's both) have to come first.

I've been trying to find some sort of accommodation with this oh-my-god-you're-going-to-die thing that keeps happening, which is to say, every time it crops up, I smack it ruthlessly back down and force myself to sit and breathe through it. It's not working. I'm doing it regardless, but these recent episodes are terrifying. We need, also, to get free of some of this crushing stress, and I don't see that happening as long as I have to spend every day scrabbling (mostly unsuccessfully) for whatever sales we can make. Closure's imminent, and I see no way to get through it now. In spite of it all, though, thanks, everybody, from both of us, for everything. I don't know about tomorrow, but at least today I got to see the dawn, and I got to play with puppies.



All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2018; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.

Friday Feature: To Live In a Longer Light

Photo copyright Aji, 2018; all rights reserved.

Now posted at The NDN Silver Blog, it's a small work by a Pueblo master set in warmer winds, but well-suited to this unseasonably warm winter. It's a depiction of a rabbit hunt, horses as guides among the desert sage, all spirits who seem to encourage us, too, to spring back to life and enjoy the chance to live in a longer light.

The post is here. Wings's main page is here. inquiries via the site's Contact form. And, as always, sales are very much needed (especially now), so shares of the site links are much appreciated.



All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2018; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.


Thursday, February 22, 2018

A short-term rescue, and a few inches of snow. Platform launch still in process. Sales (and shares) very badly needed.

Photo copyright Aji, 2018; all rights reserved.

Today's rescue. Yes, that's a dark-eyed junco. She smacked into the window this evening, all our decals and bandannas and shiny silvery spiraly things notwithstanding. I went out to see whether she was well enough to have flown away, and found her half upside-down, right wing and right leg tangled up together at an awkward angle.

I picked her up gently (she's an adult, not a chick), got her righted, and let her rest in my hand for ten minutes or so. Then we put her in Ember's old crate, lined with one of Wings's scarves, and gave her some water. If she'd needed to stay, we would've brought in some food for her, too, but after 20 minutes or so, I went to check on her . . . and she hopped out and promptly flew up onto the top of one of the vigas. I retrieved her, for about two seconds, and then she landed on a couple of other vigas, the chandelier, and eventually the windowsill, where she was hoping to get out. I caught her there and carried her outside to the feeder and had her sit in it for a minute. Then, in an explosion of feathers, she took off, flying southward toward the stand of red willows. I think she'll be fine.

Four to five inches of snow today, although part of it has melted off already (and part of it has blown off, too; I'm past ready for this wind to go, but apparently it's sticking around for a while). We'll take the snow, though; this is the first real weather we've had all winter. 

I have so much to do and I'm so far behind.

Still working on the platform launch. It may happen sooner, but given my breathing and brain fog issues and how slow I am (and how overloaded, as a result), I'm shooting for March first. That said, the first goal is to retire two specific medical bills totaling $1,676 (oh, hell, make it a flat $1,700; PayPal takes out major fees), so it's still possible to kick in in advance via the donate button here. It's not even a tenth of what I owe thus far for the hospitalizations and heart cath and other testing, but it's a start.

For the rest of it — basic living expenses to get through the winter, to say nothing of bringing the crew back part-time to make the stairs safe and finish the cabinets and the rest of the house — what we need are SALES. We had reason to believe that we would be okay, at least for a good long while, but that has not materialized, so I am back to pushing sales every second I'm able, even as I try to cadge moments to work on these other projects. And I am completely worn out, so the rest is cut-and-paste.  

Please. Spread the word. Valentine's Day's gone, but people have birthdays, anniversaries, I-love-you days; there'll be other holidays and seasons coming up before you know it. Please spread all of our links around on FB and Twitter and other social media, via e-mail and word-of-mouth, to your family and friends and colleagues and whoever. The O2 issue is now solved, but there are all the ongoing regular expenses, the astronomical medical expenses, and of course, someday we'd like to be able to get the house finished. I have no hope of that happening anytime soon; I don't know how we're going to get through the rest of this winter, given current circumstances. So here are the links: 
  • Tonight's post elsewhere (what winter is, for all of us);
  • A way to buy me coffee (which actually goes to She-Wolf's & my medical bills);
  • Wings's direct PayPal link;
  • Wings's site, for sales;
  • Wayfair gift cards, to replenish all the furnishings that the RV has destroyed in one way or another.
  • Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. There are new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need to replace (either because the RV ruined it or because we gave it away when we had to downsize).
  • Partial registry #2, from Wayfair. There are some things left on both registries that I thought by now I might be able just to buy outright, but medical bills (mine and She-Wolf's both) have to come first.

I've been trying to find some sort of accommodation with this oh-my-god-you're-going-to-die thing that keeps happening, which is to say, every time it crops up, I smack it ruthlessly back down and force myself to sit and breathe through it. It's not working. I'm doing it regardless, but these recent episodes are terrifying. We need, also, to get free of some of this crushing stress, and I don't see that happening as long as I have to spend every day scrabbling (mostly unsuccessfully) for whatever sales we can make. Closure's imminent, and I see no way to get through it now. In spite of it all, though, thanks, everybody, from both of us, for everything. I don't know about tomorrow, but at least today I got to see the dawn, and I got to play with puppies.



All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2018; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.

#ThrowbackThursday: Free to Be

Photo copyright Wings, 2018; all rights reserved.

It's #TBT at The NDN Silver Blog, with a work from at least a dozen years ago, perhaps more, that was an entry in one of Wings's small and informal signature series. It's a pin wrought in ledger-horse fashion, but this is a warrior horse who carries the imagery of powerful spirits, and he reminds us that, like him, we are free to be.

The post is here. Wings's main page is here. This work sold about a dozen years ago, but if the style speaks to your spirit, simply inquire via the site's Contact form; Wings can create a version uniquely your own. And, as always, sales are very much needed (especially now), so shares of the site links are much appreciated.



All content, including photos and text, are copyright Wings and Aji, 2018; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.


Wednesday, February 21, 2018

Dawn in high mountains, and my way to get there. Sales (and shares) very badly needed.

Photo copyright Aji, 2018; all rights reserved.

I have a very high mountain to climb.

I've been trying, for the better part of two months, to get my new site truly up and running. Up to now, posts have been essentially placeholders, filler until I could get it operational.

It's almost there.

It's going to be a private version of Patreon (which, after much urging by many people, I caved in and signed up for, to no practical effect save the hacking of my data). In this instance, I will control the data flow, and the only entity to take out fees will be PayPal. There will be subscription/sponsorship levels and rewards in the form of access to specific content, content of the caliber I've always been known for. It'll be a mix of fun stuff, imagery, fiction, poetry, and harder-edged policy analysis and critical theory. It may also include work built around Wings's art. There will be free items, too, but the whole purpose of this endeavor, one I've been trying to work on for too many years, is to free me up, ultimately, to write. For the short term, it's also to help free me from the deadly stress of the medical bills that continue to mount as the doctors fail to find what nearly killed me (and keeps trying to return to finish the job). 

My first stab at retiring this medical debt is only a small fraction of the $25K+ that continues to climb: $1,676. It's not a lot, but it's more than we have. That amount will pay off the local ambulance fee ($741) and the hospitalist's fee ($935; the hospital itself is into me for 10 times that amount). Then there will be the ambulance to Albuquerque, Lovelace and its doctors, and myriad smaller fees for imaging and labs and all sorts of things. In the next few days, the project for the $1,676 will go up, so watch this space and that one, and please subscribe.

For the rest of it — basic living expenses to get through the winter, to say nothing of bringing the crew back part-time to make the stairs safe and finish the cabinets and the rest of the house — what we need are SALES. We had reason to believe that we would be okay, at least for a good long while, but that has not materialized, so I am back to pushing sales every second I'm able, even as I try to cadge moments to work on these other projects. And I am completely worn out, so the rest is cut-and-paste.  

Please. Spread the word. Valentine's Day's gone, but people have birthdays, anniversaries, I-love-you days; there'll be other holidays and seasons coming up before you know it. Please spread all of our links around on FB and Twitter and other social media, via e-mail and word-of-mouth, to your family and friends and colleagues and whoever. The O2 issue is now solved, but there are all the ongoing regular expenses, the astronomical medical expenses, and of course, someday we'd like to be able to get the house finished. I have no hope of that happening anytime soon; I don't know how we're going to get through the rest of this winter, given current circumstances. So here are the links: 
  • Tonight's post elsewhere (a gift I thought I wouldn't live to see);
  • A way to buy me coffee (which actually goes to She-Wolf's & my medical bills);
  • Wings's direct PayPal link;
  • Wings's site, for sales;
  • Wayfair gift cards, to replenish all the furnishings that the RV has destroyed in one way or another.
  • Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. There are new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need to replace (either because the RV ruined it or because we gave it away when we had to downsize).
  • Partial registry #2, from Wayfair. There are some things left on both registries that I thought by now I might be able just to buy outright, but medical bills (mine and She-Wolf's both) have to come first.

I've been trying to find some sort of accommodation with this oh-my-god-you're-going-to-die thing that keeps happening, which is to say, every time it crops up, I smack it ruthlessly back down and force myself to sit and breathe through it. It's not working. I'm doing it regardless, but these recent episodes are terrifying. We need, also, to get free of some of this crushing stress, and I don't see that happening as long as I have to spend every day scrabbling (mostly unsuccessfully) for whatever sales we can make. Closure's imminent, and I see no way to get through it now. In spite of it all, though, thanks, everybody, from both of us, for everything. I don't know about tomorrow, but at least today I got to see the dawn, and I got to play with puppies.



All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2018; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.

A Time to Rise

Photo copyright Aji, 2018; all rights reserved.

Now posted at The NDN Silver Blog, it's one of Wings's more recent works, a piece of talismanic properties and cosmic proportions that reminds us how we came to be. It's a reminder, too, of the damage we must repair, and likewise a warning: We live in a time of earth rising to the challenge of survival, and it is a time to rise for us, too.

The post is here. Wings's main page is here. Inquiries via the site's Contact form. And, as always, sales are very much needed (especially now; without our customary savings from holiday sales, I'm worried about how we'll make it through this month, never mind the next), so shares of the site links are much appreciated.



All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2018; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.


Tuesday, February 20, 2018

Fangs and claws, and floppy ears and tails. No way to get through the winter without sales, so shares are desperately, desperately needed.

Photo copyright Aji, 2018; all rights reserved.

Crow, left; Cricket, right. Yes, the ear mostly stays like that. A couple of weeks ago, they were the exact same size, which is to say, all bones. Crow is now visibly larger, thanks to solid weeks of meals. Cricket is larger than he was, and healthier-looking, too, after only a week of food. He's also losing his fear, and these two spent almost the entire morning romping in the thin rime of snow in the fields. Coyote was there, too, albeit out of camera range, and the other dogs showed up early this afternoon for Wings to feed them.

They'll never leave now, but they're living beings, and we can't leave them to suffer and starve.

Yesterday was absolutely hellish, with winds gusting above the 50-mph mark. Today the winds were better, but not by much, and much colder than yesterday. Where my autoimmune disease is concerned, I've learned to adapt to cold and heat and humidity (which is to say, I put up with it and ignore it as much as possible), but wind is completely intractable. It jacks my pain levels exponentially, and now, with this . . . whatever it is, it makes breathing increasingly difficult. I spent most of the night on oxygen again, and tonight will probably be more of the same.

All this is by way of noting that my energy reserves are entirely gone for this day. We do need sales. Badly. Without them, we have no way to get through the rest of the winter, since this year, we have no reserves from holiday sales. Yes, l'm scared. The rest is cut-and-paste. 

Again, if you're thinking about donating, DON'T. Give it to Bobby to help get Don Feliberto back into a real home. Here's the latest update. We know what it's like not to have one; we have one now, and donations need to go there to get this elder safe again. I posted a second piece at my other site a couple of nights ago about Bobby's efforts in Puerto Rico, including his adoption of Don Feliberto to get this abandoned elder into safe space again. That will tell you what he's up against, and my e-mail's in my Blogger profile here (or you can DM at Twitter/FB); hit me up for his addresses if you want to contribute, either cash (most needed) or household and other items, some of which you can purchase outright via the Amazon Wishlist Bobby's set up here. He's added a bunch of new items, all badly needed, and I can testify to the fact that need for the power cords, the tools, and the solar lights and equipment is probably exigent at this point. That said, when you're in a situation like Don Feliberto is, it's amazing how wonderful clean clothes and good coffee can make you feel, too.

What we need are SALES. Please. Spread the word. Valentine's Day's gone, but people have birthdays, anniversaries, I-love-you days; there'll be other holidays and seasons coming up before you know it. Please spread all of our links around on FB and Twitter and other social media, via e-mail and word-of-mouth, to your family and friends and colleagues and whoever. The O2 issue is now solved, but there are all the ongoing regular expenses, the astronomical medical expenses, and of course, someday we'd like to be able to get the house finished. I have no hope of that happening anytime soon; I don't know how we're going to get through the rest of this winter, given current circumstances. So here are the links: 
  • Tonight's post elsewhere (a warning on a day when winter itself is predatory);
  • A way to buy me coffee (which actually goes to She-Wolf's & my medical bills);
  • Wings's direct PayPal link;
  • Wings's site, for sales;
  • Wayfair gift cards, to replenish all the furnishings that the RV has destroyed in one way or another.
  • Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. There are new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need to replace (either because the RV ruined it or because we gave it away when we had to downsize).
  • Partial registry #2, from Wayfair. There are some things left on both registries that I thought by now I might be able just to buy outright, but medical bills (mine and She-Wolf's both) have to come first.
I've been trying to find some sort of accommodation with this oh-my-god-you're-going-to-die thing that keeps happening, which is to say, every time it crops up, I smack it ruthlessly back down and force myself to sit and breathe through it. It's not working. I'm doing it regardless, but these recent episodes are terrifying. We need, also, to get free of some of this crushing stress, and I don't see that happening as long as I have to spend every day scrabbling (mostly unsuccessfully) for whatever sales we can make. Closure's imminent, and I see no way to get through it now. In spite of it all, though, thanks, everybody, from both of us, for everything. I don't know about tomorrow, but at least today I got to see the dawn, and I got to play with puppies.



All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2018; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.