Thursday, December 14, 2017

Tree has moved, but is not up. Exhaustion and depression rule now. Holiday sales are WAY down; sales/shares badly needed.

Photo copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved.
No, it's not still on the truck bed; it's now on the deck. Still haven't had time to get it up. I don't actually have words to make people understand how slow I am now, or how difficult it is to get even minimal things done. I can't make people see the sheer disabling exhaustion, or the emotional lability, or the fact that having the cannula fall out of my nose during sleep sets me up for an impending episode, destroys the rest of my sleep, and makes daytime function nearly impossible. The only thing I wanted was to be able to enjoy Christmas in our home, and I can't even do the most basic stuff. The CPAP arrived late, just before full dark, and I'm so wiped out I can't even think about trying to figure out how to set it up tonight, so tonight will be the O2 off the rented concentrator again. I'm so tired, and all my energy is directed right now to keeping from losing it entirely, because there is literally not one thing I can do about this, and the answers the hospital should have sought over a month ago are not remotely near at this point.

Yes, I'm depressed. No, there's nothing anyone can do about it. It'll pass. Or not, if they don't find this and fix it.

Sales are way, WAY off this season. This is what usually gets us through the next four to six months, the holiday sales, and they're way down. Part of it is the mess that is our so-called government, with the fraud at the alleged top and the great swath of destruction he and his minions are carving through the country. Part of it is that that hedge-fund jackass built that stupid lift on the peak and blasted the mountain with explosives, and the spirits are now thoroughly pissed, and there is NO snow, so there is no tourism, either. I have no idea how we'll meet even minimal expenses, much less how we'll help our friend get down to her cancer treatment appointments. We couldn't do it this week, and her truck remains without a clutch. Forget what remains to be done on the house for now. We need to make some sales. A lot of them. But sales are not just what's going to keep me alive and Wings healthy; it's going to help other folks, too. Given the circumstances, I'm leaving up the donation link, too, and the registries have some new items on then, mostly lower-priced, to replace stuff damaged by the RV or given away when we first moved into it seven years ago. So please share our links:
  • Wings's direct PayPal link;
  • Wings's site, for sales;
  • Wayfair gift cards, to replenish all the furnishings that the RV has destroyed in one way or another.
  • Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. There are new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need to replace (either because the RV ruined it or because we gave it away when we had to downsize).
  • Partial registry #2, from Wayfair. Still waiting for them to resolve this fulfillment/shipping problem they have with their site. Even so, I've added some things (kitchen/dining room stuff mostly), most of which are comparatively reasonably priced. Now, it's going to be mostly odds and ends that make this place more liveable, because of the sheer volume of stuff destroyed by too many years in the RV (e.g., by the oven and stovetop, by the wiring, by the water, by the mold, etc.), or that we simply gave away seven years ago because we had no room and no place to put them and despaired of ever being able to use them again. A CHANGE ABOUT WAYFAIR:  NO MORE CROWDFUNDING. Their Web site coding is bad, and it will not permit crowdfunded items to ship. Items purchased outright arrive in two business days, but you can't even get the others out of the warehouse. I've spent the last month fighting with them about shipping the dozen or so things that folks fulfilled, and today's message was finally terse enough that they did the manual override, four whole weeks later, that I knew they could do but simply weren't bothering. But I'll be removing all the crowdfunding options. I'm supposed to keep my blood pressure down these days.
As I've also been saying, I am still catching up, and will be now for a while. But this is the holiday season, and the sales/commissions from these few weeks are what keep us alive throughout the whole long winter and spring months (to say nothing of what's in the offing medically), so please continue to share the links. And please refer folks to Wings's site (and if you have an endorsement, too, so much the better). I'll be trying, slowly but, I hope, steadily, to get caught up over the course of this week. We have some massive expenses coming down the pike, and a lot of testing yet to be done before I'm out of the woods. So please keep sharing all our links. For now, I'm just so damn grateful to be alive, to have a healthy heart, to be back home with the love of my life and our dogs, the whole world is beautiful, even in spite of my terrible depression. Thanks again, to everybody, and we love you all.





All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.

#ThrowbackThursday: Braiding Earth and Sky

Photo copyright Wings, 2017; all rights reserved.

It's #TBT at The NDN Silver Blog, with a piece from a decade or more ago that summoned the spirit of Mother Earth herself. It was a complex, compound work, one that embodied the world's body and its myriad organic spirits, braiding earth and sky together.

The post is here. Wings's main page is here. This piece sold many years ago, of course, but if the style speaks to your spirit, simply inquire via the site's Contact form; Wings can create a version uniquely your own. And, as always, sales are very much needed (especially now, with sales way, way down and expenses now way, way up), so shares of the site links are much appreciated.



All content, including photos and text, are copyright Wings and Aji, 2017; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.


Wednesday, December 13, 2017

A little holiday spirit, maybe. Sales/shares still very badly needed.

Photo copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved.

Better today, in terms of my frame of mind. No, nothing's changed on the health front. Not a peep out of Amazon on the concentrator, so we went into town and renewed the rental on this one for the rest of the month. At least the CPAP folks are prompt; it's currently at the ABQ sorting center, and will be here sometime tomorrow.

I wiped myself out with errands, since I have no way to take the O2 with me. But one wonderful thing we got done is that up there. We went looking for one late today in a special place; Wings found the perfect one, he cut it, and we brought it home. Tomorrow, hopefully, we'll get it up into the stand so its branches can rest, and then we'll decorate slowly over the next few days. We haven't had a real tree in . . . well, ever, so this is a gift. 

Still, I have no idea how we'll meet even minimal expenses, much less how we'll help our friend get down to her cancer treatment appointments. Forget what remains to be done on the house for now. We need to make some sales. A lot of them. Sales are way off this year, in part due to the  terrible weather (terrible here being 60 with no snow), and in part due to the terrible situation in D.C. But sales are not just what's going to keep me alive and Wings healthy; it's going to help other folks, too. Given the circumstances, I'm leaving up the donation link, too, and the registries have some new items on then, mostly lower-priced, to replace stuff damaged by the RV or given away when we first moved into it seven years ago. So please share our links:
  • Wings's direct PayPal link;
  • Wings's site, for sales;
  • Wayfair gift cards, to replenish all the furnishings that the RV has destroyed in one way or another.
  • Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. There are new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need to replace (either because the RV ruined it or because we gave it away when we had to downsize).
  • Partial registry #2, from Wayfair. Still waiting for them to resolve this fulfillment/shipping problem they have with their site. Even so, I've added some things (kitchen/dining room stuff mostly), most of which are comparatively reasonably priced. Now, it's going to be mostly odds and ends that make this place more liveable, because of the sheer volume of stuff destroyed by too many years in the RV (e.g., by the oven and stovetop, by the wiring, by the water, by the mold, etc.), or that we simply gave away seven years ago because we had no room and no place to put them and despaired of ever being able to use them again. A CHANGE ABOUT WAYFAIR:  NO MORE CROWDFUNDING. Their Web site coding is bad, and it will not permit crowdfunded items to ship. Items purchased outright arrive in two business days, but you can't even get the others out of the warehouse. I've spent the last month fighting with them about shipping the dozen or so things that folks fulfilled, and today's message was finally terse enough that they did the manual override, four whole weeks later, that I knew they could do but simply weren't bothering. But I'll be removing all the crowdfunding options. I'm supposed to keep my blood pressure down these days.
As I've also been saying, I am still catching up, and will be now for a while. But this is the holiday season, and the sales/commissions from these few weeks are what keep us alive throughout the whole long winter and spring months (to say nothing of what's in the offing medically), so please continue to share the links. And please refer folks to Wings's site (and if you have an endorsement, too, so much the better). I'll be trying, slowly but, I hope, steadily, to get caught up over the course of this week. We have some massive expenses coming down the pike, and a lot of testing yet to be done before I'm out of the woods. So please keep sharing all our links. For now, I'm just so damn grateful to be alive, to have a healthy heart, to be back home with the love of my life and our dogs, the whole world is beautiful, even in spite of my terrible depression. Thanks again, to everybody, and we love you all.





All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.

The Shape of Our Dreams

Photo copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved.

Now posted at The NDN Silver Blog, it's a work of physical and spiritual armor for dream warriors. In our way, the shape of our dreams gives form and structure to our world, and it is time for us all to dream as warriors on the earth's behalf.

The post is here. Wings's main page is here. Inquiries via the site's Contact form. And as always, sales are very much needed (especially now), so shares of the site links are much appreciated.



All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.


Tuesday, December 12, 2017

First of the farolitos. Really disheartened tonight for a lot of reasons. Sales/shares badly needed.

Photo copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved.

Wings got a start on holiday decorating today with the farolitos. They're only on the one side so far; front and west sides tomorrow.

Not feeling especially holiday-ish tonight. It'll pass, but right now, I'm struggling with fear and depression and anger and the knowledge that if any of the damned docs on the 10th had just LISTENED to me, we'd have had the bloodwork results a month ago, and I might not being having to worry about dying in my sleep every single night (or even in the daytime) now. I don't actually feel well at any moment of the day or night, and Amazon effing up the concentrator delivery has kept me housebound waiting for it with no word from the seller or the shipper. The bills keep pouring in (just shy of $17K, and they're not done yet), and yet I have no more of a way forward than I did on November 10th. I'll have to renew the rental tomorrow, and a portable one is, at $3-4K, simply out of reach. How we're going to ensure Darla gets to her own appointments for her cancer treatment I have no idea; the money's not there. I am just really feeling awful physically tonight, and very disheartened, too. It'll pass, so just ignore it, but PLEASE share the links below.

We need to make some sales. A lot of them. Sales are way off this year, in part due to the  terrible weather (terrible here being 60 with no snow), and in part due to the terrible situation in D.C. But sales are not just what's going to keep me alive and Wings healthy; it's going to help other folks, too. Given the circumstances, I'm leaving up the donation link, too, and the registries have some new items on then, mostly lower-priced, to replace stuff damaged by the RV or given away when we first moved into it seven years ago. So please share our links:
  • Wings's direct PayPal link;
  • Wings's site, for sales;
  • Wayfair gift cards, to replenish all the furnishings that the RV has destroyed in one way or another.
  • Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. There are new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need to replace (either because the RV ruined it or because we gave it away when we had to downsize).
  • Partial registry #2, from Wayfair. Still waiting for them to resolve this fulfillment/shipping problem they have with their site. Even so, I've added some things (kitchen/dining room stuff mostly), most of which are comparatively reasonably priced. Now, it's going to be mostly odds and ends that make this place more liveable, because of the sheer volume of stuff destroyed by too many years in the RV (e.g., by the oven and stovetop, by the wiring, by the water, by the mold, etc.), or that we simply gave away seven years ago because we had no room and no place to put them and despaired of ever being able to use them again. A CHANGE ABOUT WAYFAIR:  NO MORE CROWDFUNDING. Their Web site coding is bad, and it will not permit crowdfunded items to ship. Items purchased outright arrive in two business days, but you can't even get the others out of the warehouse. I've spent the last month fighting with them about shipping the dozen or so things that folks fulfilled, and today's message was finally terse enough that they did the manual override, four whole weeks later, that I knew they could do but simply weren't bothering. But I'll be removing all the crowdfunding options. I'm supposed to keep my blood pressure down these days.
As I've also been saying, I am still catching up, and will be now for a while. But this is the holiday season, and the sales/commissions from these few weeks are what keep us alive throughout the whole long winter and spring months (to say nothing of what's in the offing medically), so please continue to share the links. And please refer folks to Wings's site (and if you have an endorsement, too, so much the better). I'll be trying, slowly but, I hope, steadily, to get caught up over the course of this week. We have some massive expenses coming down the pike, and a lot of testing yet to be done before I'm out of the woods. So please keep sharing all our links. For now, I'm just so damn grateful to be alive, to have a healthy heart, to be back home with the love of my life and our dogs, the whole world is beautiful, even in spite of my terrible depression. Thanks again, to everybody, and we love you all.





All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.

Red Willow Spirit: What Holds the World Together

Photo copyright Wings, 2017; all rights reserved.

Now posted at The NDN Silver Blog, it's this week's edition of Red Willow Spirit, with a look at the body and breath, blood and bone, of our Mother Earth. It's also a reminder of a lesson that most of her population has long forgotten, that we are as a much a part of her as she is of us, and we are likewise part of what holds the world together.

The post is here. Wings's main page is here. It's all photos today, and as always with Wings's work, they're available for purchase in any of the usual three formats; simply inquire via the site's Contact form. Also as always, sales are very much needed (especially now), so shares of the site links are much appreciated.



All content, including photos and text, are copyright Wings and Aji, 2017; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.


Monday, December 11, 2017

Exhaustion. Expenses. A lot of bloodwork, and now we wait. Sales/shares/registries (especially sales) needed.

Photo copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved.

Yeah, not a good shot, but the ottoman's where it belongs in our bedroom now. The armoire is assembled and moved into the guest room, too. Marcos is paid for his work last week and in advance for his work through Wednesday this week, so he'll have some extra scratch for his family for the holidays.  

The fatigue has set in for both of us now. For me, it's this ongoing . . . whatever the hell it is. The last two months were mostly sleepless, with another episode threatening around the edges. Might turn out to have been nothing more than a slight crimp in the other end of the cannula; might not. For Wings, it's all the pressure and pace of the last month catching up to him, trying to do all of his usual and take care of me, too. And then this morning we had to be up and out the door early for my bloodwork (fasting, so no coffee, and I still have a headache from that and the lack of food); they drew five vials for eight separate multi-item panels. Fingers crossed that something shows up — something that can be, you know, fixed. A month and a day, and still no answers, and don't think it's not scary, because it's terrifying. And now I wait, and wait some more, until we know what they say; they expect the first results probably by Friday, but the remainder sometime next week, most likely. It's going to be a very, very long week, and right now, the thing I feel most is a numbing, blinding, beyond-bone-deep exhaustion.

For now, we need to make some sales. A lot of them. It's not just keeping me alive and Wings healthy; it's helping other folks, too. Given the circumstances, I'm leaving up the donation link, too, and the registries have some new items on then, mostly lower-priced, to replace stuff damaged by the RV or given away when we first moved into it seven years ago. So please share our links:
  • Wings's direct PayPal link;
  • Wings's site, for sales;
  • Wayfair gift cards, to replenish all the furnishings that the RV has destroyed in one way or another.
  • Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. There are new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need to replace (either because the RV ruined it or because we gave it away when we had to downsize).
  • Partial registry #2, from Wayfair. Still waiting for them to resolve this fulfillment/shipping problem they have with their site. Even so, I've added some things (kitchen/dining room stuff mostly), most of which are comparatively reasonably priced. Now, it's going to be mostly odds and ends that make this place more liveable, because of the sheer volume of stuff destroyed by too many years in the RV (e.g., by the oven and stovetop, by the wiring, by the water, by the mold, etc.), or that we simply gave away seven years ago because we had no room and no place to put them and despaired of ever being able to use them again. A CHANGE ABOUT WAYFAIR:  NO MORE CROWDFUNDING. Their Web site coding is bad, and it will not permit crowdfunded items to ship. Items purchased outright arrive in two business days, but you can't even get the others out of the warehouse. I've spent the last month fighting with them about shipping the dozen or so things that folks fulfilled, and today's message was finally terse enough that they did the manual override, four whole weeks later, that I knew they could do but simply weren't bothering. But I'll be removing all the crowdfunding options. I'm supposed to keep my blood pressure down these days.
As I've also been saying, I am still catching up, and will be now for a while. But this is the holiday season, and the sales/commissions from these few weeks are what keep us alive throughout the whole long winter and spring months (to say nothing of what's in the offing medically), so please continue to share the links. And please refer folks to Wings's site (and if you have an endorsement, too, so much the better). I'll be trying, slowly but, I hope, steadily, to get caught up over the course of this week. We have some massive expenses coming down the pike, and a lot of testing yet to be done before I'm out of the woods. So please keep sharing all our links. For now, I'm just so damn grateful to be alive, to have a healthy heart, to be back home with the love of my life and our dogs, the whole world is beautiful. Thanks again, to everybody, and we love you all.





All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.

Monday Photo Meditation: The Bones Tell

Photo copyright Wings, 2017; all rights reserved.

Now posted at The NDN Silver Blog, it's a photo meditation for a Monday at once too-warm and skeletally wintry. It's also a time to honor those essential structures of life, to recognize this is the time when the bones tell, to recognize their grace and beauty and listen to their stories.

The post is here. Wings's main page is here. As always, Wings's photos are available for purchase in any of the usual three formats; simply inquire via the site's Contact form. Also as always, sales are very much needed (especially now), so shares of the site links are much appreciated.



All content, including photos and text, are copyright Wings and Aji, 2017; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.


Sunday, December 10, 2017

A lot going on tomorrow. Some folks need our help even more right now, though. Sales/shares/registries (especially sales) needed.

Photo copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved.

Even the bridges are frozen and slick. Seems like a good metaphor for life right now; there's just no end to the ways in which you can lose your footing.

::Sigh:: first thing tomorrow morning, I have to have my bloodwork done. Then I'll have to renew the O2 concentrator rental, since the other one's not here. Forget the portable for now. All this was plenty more than enough, believe me.

But . . . sometimes other folks need us more.

Y'all know about the 15-year-old Native kid who works for us on weekends. He's the one who's going to Cuba with that advanced-placement college course group right after New Year's. No, we didn't pay for that; we just connected him up with a sponsor who made sure he could go. Yesterday, he brought his passport to show us. He's so proud, and we're proud of him.

His mom was nearly two hours late picking him up.

It wasn't a big deal; it's not like we were going anywhere. So he just worked for the time that he was here, and we paid him for the extra, of course. We found out this morning, though, why she was late.

The clutch in their old truck was dying; it finally went out last night, apparently. They've gotten a quote for $700 for replacement from a mechanic they know (sight unseen, though; who knows what it'll ultimately be). And we'll have to help them with it, because they need transportation. But the bigger issue at the moment is how long it'll take to get the work done. His mom has cancer — late-stage, both breasts, spread to lymph nodes and bones both. She's undergoing treatment, but the only place she can get it is at UNM in Albuquerque (no insurance, etc.; no access to anything locally, which is frankly a terrible market for those who aren't wealthy). She has to drive down there every week, which is hard on her anyway, but it's her only hope. She's fighting, in the starkest, most literal terms, for her life right now. River's fifteen; he needs his mom. And we have to do whatever we can to help her make it.

I'm not sure yet what that means for this week. It may mean nothing; we may be able to help her get the truck fixed in time. But my own experience with clutches on old vehicles suggests that it'll take a few days just to get a used replacement. She doesn't have that kind of time, and she can't miss her appointment. So the upshot is that if we need to divert the funds we'd planned to use this week for some of my stuff her, that's what's going to happen. Don't worry; we'll make sure I have O2, because right now I can't survive without it. We'll get the bloodwork done. But anything else might have to be delayed, because this woman, who is our friend and who is River's mom, needs to make it, and if she misses a treatment? I can't even think about the ramifications of that. So this is the way it's going to be.  

For now, we need to make some sales. A lot of them. It's not just keeping me alive and Wings healthy; it's helping her, too. Given the circumstances, I'm leaving up the donation link, too, and the registries have some new items on then, mostly lower-priced, to replace stuff damaged by the RV or given away when we first moved into it seven years ago. So please share our links:
  • Wings's direct PayPal link;
  • Wings's site, for sales;
  • Wayfair gift cards, to replenish all the furnishings that the RV has destroyed in one way or another.
  • Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. There are new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need to replace (either because the RV ruined it or because we gave it away when we had to downsize).
  • Partial registry #2, from Wayfair. Still waiting for them to resolve this fulfillment/shipping problem they have with their site. Even so, I've added some things (kitchen/dining room stuff mostly), most of which are comparatively reasonably priced. Now, it's going to be mostly odds and ends that make this place more liveable, because of the sheer volume of stuff destroyed by too many years in the RV (e.g., by the oven and stovetop, by the wiring, by the water, by the mold, etc.), or that we simply gave away seven years ago because we had no room and no place to put them and despaired of ever being able to use them again. A CHANGE ABOUT WAYFAIR:  NO MORE CROWDFUNDING. Their Web site coding is bad, and it will not permit crowdfunded items to ship. Items purchased outright arrive in two business days, but you can't even get the others out of the warehouse. I've spent the last month fighting with them about shipping the dozen or so things that folks fulfilled, and today's message was finally terse enough that they did the manual override, four whole weeks later, that I knew they could do but simply weren't bothering. But I'll be removing all the crowdfunding options. I'm supposed to keep my blood pressure down these days.
As I've also been saying, I am still catching up, and will be now for a while. But this is the holiday season, and the sales/commissions from these few weeks are what keep us alive throughout the whole long winter and spring months (to say nothing of what's in the offing medically), so please continue to share the links. And please refer folks to Wings's site (and if you have an endorsement, too, so much the better). I'll be trying, slowly but, I hope, steadily, to get caught up over the course of this week. We have some massive expenses coming down the pike, and a lot of testing yet to be done before I'm out of the woods. So please keep sharing all our links. For now, I'm just so damn grateful to be alive, to have a healthy heart, to be back home with the love of my life and our dogs, the whole world is beautiful. Thanks again, to everybody, and we love you all.





All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.

A Path Lit By the Spirits

Photo copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved.

Now posted at The NDN Silver Blog, it's a work that embodies light in the storm. It's a lesson for us when we are buffeted relentlessly by elemental forces, even when holding on is all we can do, we nonetheless walk a path lit by the spirits.

The post is here. Wings's main page is here. Inquiries via the site's Contact form. And, as always, sales are very much needed (especially now), so shares of the site links are much appreciated.



All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.


Saturday, December 9, 2017

Warmer today, ice notwithstanding. Very, very tired. Sales/shares/registries needed.

Photo copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved.

Our pond. Despite the ice, the wind dwindled today to almost nothing, so it was finally able to warm up a bit.  It'll get down to single digits again overnight, or very close to it, but today's high was fifty, and it actually felt like fifty. I shouldn't want it to be this warm; this is climate change in real time, and it's not at all a good thing. But I'm having trouble staying warm these days, so I'm not going to be ungrateful for it.

I am, however, really, really tired right now, so tonight's post is going to be very pro forma. I'm feeling better, and yet at the same time not feeling very well. Yeah, I know that doesn't seem to make much sense, but nothing about this does. I was well enough to be able to disconnect and do some stuff around here very (VERY) slowly, but then I have to hook myself back up again and suck down oxygen. It's looking like I'm going to have rent this sucker for another week, given that I have no idea what Amazon has done with the other one. Also, I'll have to forego the portable unit, even though my doctor just wrote a scrip for it; the prices are flatly absurd. I'm hoping that I hear Monday on an ETA for the CPAP unit, at least. [To be clear, before anyone says anything: I don't have regular apnea, and they don't even think what apnea-like symptoms I do have are at the root of this, only another manifestation of some other underlying cause. But if it fixes even just some of it, we've just short-circuited a lot of unnecessary time and expense.] And now, I'm beat, and I need to go stoke up the fire because it's feeling like it's burned out. The rest is cut and paste.

Lots of expenses coming down the pike (first one already here in yesterday's mail), and we need to make some sales. Given the circumstances, I'm leaving up the donation link, too, and the registries have some new items on then, mostly lower-priced, to replace stuff damaged by the RV or given away when we first moved into it seven years ago. So please share our links:
  • Wings's direct PayPal link;
  • Wings's site, for sales;
  • Wayfair gift cards, to replenish all the furnishings that the RV has destroyed in one way or another.
  • Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. There are new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need to replace (either because the RV ruined it or because we gave it away when we had to downsize).
  • Partial registry #2, from Wayfair. Still waiting for them to resolve this fulfillment/shipping problem they have with their site. Even so, I've added some things (kitchen/dining room stuff mostly), most of which are comparatively reasonably priced. Now, it's going to be mostly odds and ends that make this place more liveable, because of the sheer volume of stuff destroyed by too many years in the RV (e.g., by the oven and stovetop, by the wiring, by the water, by the mold, etc.), or that we simply gave away seven years ago because we had no room and no place to put them and despaired of ever being able to use them again. A CHANGE ABOUT WAYFAIR:  NO MORE CROWDFUNDING. Their Web site coding is bad, and it will not permit crowdfunded items to ship. Items purchased outright arrive in two business days, but you can't even get the others out of the warehouse. I've spent the last month fighting with them about shipping the dozen or so things that folks fulfilled, and today's message was finally terse enough that they did the manual override, four whole weeks later, that I knew they could do but simply weren't bothering. But I'll be removing all the crowdfunding options. I'm supposed to keep my blood pressure down these days.
As I've also been saying, I am still catching up, and will be now for a while. But this is the holiday season, and the sales/commissions from these few weeks are what keep us alive throughout the whole long winter and spring months (to say nothing of what's in the offing medically), so please continue to share the links. And please refer folks to Wings's site (and if you have an endorsement, too, so much the better). I'll be trying, slowly but, I hope, steadily, to get caught up over the course of this week. We have some massive expenses coming down the pike, and a lot of testing yet to be done before I'm out of the woods. So please keep sharing all our links. For now, I'm just so damn grateful to be alive, to have a healthy heart, to be back home with the love of my life and our dogs, the whole world is beautiful. Thanks again, to everybody, and we love you all.





All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.

Faith In the Earth, Hope In the Light

Photo copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved.

Now posted at The NDN Silver Blog, it's a work that reminds us, in times of elemental hardship, that calm will eventually return again. It's a lesson our peoples know well and by which we have long survived, via faith in the earth, hope in the light.

The post is here. Wings's main page is here. Inquiries via the site's Contact form. And, as always, sales are very much needed (especially now), so shares of the site links are much appreciated.



All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.


Friday, December 8, 2017

New and gorgeous fiber art. Winter art that's not so much fun. No concentrator, but CPAP in the works. Sales/shares/registries needed.

Photo copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved.

More iPad photos, sadly, but up there? That's a work of artistic genius from a very dear friend. Yes! It's here; it arrived today. It's now on the bed, on top of the Pendleton blanket. It's amazing. Note embroidery at bottom; there're are also other small embroidered images scattered throughout the star.

Amazing in a whole other way is the weather:

Photo copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved.
That's the pond. More of a lake now, actually. Also frozen. Like the air; the wind kept changing directions all day, but it just howled nonstop. It's brutal. Under the circumstances, I was already wiped from yesterday, but today's just been ridiculous in that regard. Too tired even to think, so the rest is cut and paste. Well, except for one brief note on the medical front: The CPAP unit my doc wanted me to get is on order, and they've already faxed the scrip confirmation to her office. Assuming everything goes smoothly, I might have it next week. It's looking like I'll need to pay for another week for the rental concentrator, though, because the other one never arrived. ::Sigh:: Amazon apparently sent it to the wrong address, despite us having only ONE physical address on file with them, and so we have on clue where it is or when we'll actually see it.

Lots of expenses coming down the pike (first one already here in yesterday's mail), and we need to make some sales. Given the circumstances, I'm leaving up the donation link, too, and the registries have some new items on then, mostly lower-priced, to replace stuff damaged by the RV or given away when we first moved into it seven years ago. So please share our links:
  • Wings's direct PayPal link;
  • Wings's site, for sales;
  • Wayfair gift cards, to replenish all the furnishings that the RV has destroyed in one way or another.
  • Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. There are new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need to replace (either because the RV ruined it or because we gave it away when we had to downsize).
  • Partial registry #2, from Wayfair. Still waiting for them to resolve this fulfillment/shipping problem they have with their site. Even so, I've added some things (kitchen/dining room stuff mostly), most of which are comparatively reasonably priced. Now, it's going to be mostly odds and ends that make this place more liveable, because of the sheer volume of stuff destroyed by too many years in the RV (e.g., by the oven and stovetop, by the wiring, by the water, by the mold, etc.), or that we simply gave away seven years ago because we had no room and no place to put them and despaired of ever being able to use them again. A CHANGE ABOUT WAYFAIR:  NO MORE CROWDFUNDING. Their Web site coding is bad, and it will not permit crowdfunded items to ship. Items purchased outright arrive in two business days, but you can't even get the others out of the warehouse. I've spent the last month fighting with them about shipping the dozen or so things that folks fulfilled, and today's message was finally terse enough that they did the manual override, four whole weeks later, that I knew they could do but simply weren't bothering. But I'll be removing all the crowdfunding options. I'm supposed to keep my blood pressure down these days.
As I've also been saying, I am still catching up, and will be now for a while. But this is the holiday season, and the sales/commissions from these few weeks are what keep us alive throughout the whole long winter and spring months (to say nothing of what's in the offing medically), so please continue to share the links. And please refer folks to Wings's site (and if you have an endorsement, too, so much the better). I'll be trying, slowly but, I hope, steadily, to get caught up over the course of this week. We have some massive expenses coming down the pike, and a lot of testing yet to be done before I'm out of the woods. So please keep sharing all our links. For now, I'm just so damn grateful to be alive, to have a healthy heart, to be back home with the love of my life and our dogs, the whole world is beautiful. Thanks again, to everybody, and we love you all.





All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.

Friday Feature: The Medicine of the Light

Photo copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved.

It's our Friday Feature at The NDN Silver Blog, with a work designed, in days of brutal cold like these, to help us keep our souls aflame. It's a diminutive bear who, with the help of Father Sun, brings us the medicine of the light.

The post is here. Wings's main page is here. inquiries via the site's Contact form. And, as always, sales are very much needed (especially now), so shares of the site links are much appreciated.



All content, including photos and text, are copyright Wings and Aji, 2017; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.


Thursday, December 7, 2017

Doc's visit a success, with a lot in the works now. $500 match on offer. Sales/shares/registries needed.



Photo copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved.

Yes, another iPad photo from last night. Still no solution on the other.

Some potential solutions from the doctor today, though. We have a very provisionally provisional working DX, not that she thinks this will absolutely turn out to be it, nor that it's anywhere near the whole of the problem, but a start. There is a form of apnea that is not necessarily confined to sleep, and is not obstructive; it's a misfiring of the central nervous system, in which the body fails to tell itself to keep breathing. Now, I could spend weeks and months trying to schedule a sleep study down in Santa Fe, and spend thousands and thousands of dollars on it . . . or, I could just go straight to a variant of a CPAP system, and that's what she's decided to do. I can order a basic model for something over $350, if I do it soon (it's an end-of-year special, apparently), and then I can see what happens. If it works? GREAT. One big thing down. If not, well, we've short-circuited the time/expense/logistics issues of the study.

So I have a scrip for that machine, plus a scrip for a PORTABLE oxygen concentrator, so that I'm not entirely housebound. Today was difficult, being gone for several hours with no access to the O2. She was quite interested to find that it seemed to be helping so much, especially given the great shape my heart itself seems to be in, so she agrees 1) there's definitely something else at work here; 2) the ER would be no help, and indeed, counterproductive; and 3) I've been handling it the right way. She has also scheduled comprehensive bloodwork for Monday. We'll wait to see whether I need the follow-up on the 21st or not; if not, my next visit is slated for late January. In the meantime, next month might see some Holtor monitor testing and some work with her practice's Doctor of Oriental Medicine. Also a lot of crossed fingers and a lot of prayers that everything goes okay from here on in. It's really frightening to wake up every single night feeling not precisely like you're going to die, but rather, that you're already in the middle of dying. And I want to live.

Lots of expenses coming down the pike (first one already here in yesterday's mail), and we need to make some sales. Given the circumstances, I'm leaving up the donation link, too, and the registries have some new items on then, mostly lower-priced, to replace stuff damaged by the RV or given away when we first moved into it seven years ago. Darling Yasu also has a diary up for us, and there's a $500 match on offer, so please T&R and share. Please also share our links:
  • Wings's direct PayPal link;
  • Wings's site, for sales;
  • Wayfair gift cards, to replenish all the furnishings that the RV has destroyed in one way or another.
  • Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. There are new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need to replace (either because the RV ruined it or because we gave it away when we had to downsize).
  • Partial registry #2, from Wayfair. Still waiting for them to resolve this fulfillment/shipping problem they have with their site. Even so, I've added some things (kitchen/dining room stuff mostly), most of which are comparatively reasonably priced. Now, it's going to be mostly odds and ends that make this place more liveable, because of the sheer volume of stuff destroyed by too many years in the RV (e.g., by the oven and stovetop, by the wiring, by the water, by the mold, etc.), or that we simply gave away seven years ago because we had no room and no place to put them and despaired of ever being able to use them again. A CHANGE ABOUT WAYFAIR:  NO MORE CROWDFUNDING. Their Web site coding is bad, and it will not permit crowdfunded items to ship. Items purchased outright arrive in two business days, but you can't even get the others out of the warehouse. I've spent the last month fighting with them about shipping the dozen or so things that folks fulfilled, and today's message was finally terse enough that they did the manual override, four whole weeks later, that I knew they could do but simply weren't bothering. But I'll be removing all the crowdfunding options. I'm supposed to keep my blood pressure down these days.
As I've also been saying, I am still catching up, and will be now for a while. But this is the holiday season, and the sales/commissions from these few weeks are what keep us alive throughout the whole long winter and spring months (to say nothing of what's in the offing medically), so please continue to share the links. And please refer folks to Wings's site (and if you have an endorsement, too, so much the better). I'll be trying, slowly but, I hope, steadily, to get caught up over the course of this week. We have some massive expenses coming down the pike, and a lot of testing yet to be done before I'm out of the woods. So please keep sharing all our links. For now, I'm just so damn grateful to be alive, to have a healthy heart, to be back home with the love of my life and our dogs, the whole world is beautiful. Thanks again, to everybody, and we love you all.





All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.

#TBT: The Tools of Hope

Photo copyright Wings, 2017; all rights reserved.

It's #ThrowbackThursday at The NDN Silver Blog, with a work from 2009 or so that was the only one of its particular kind and shape. It was a cuff made of unusually slender conjoined feathers, bound by a talismanic Skystone in the color of a wintry Pueblo sky, and it served as a reminder that even the smallest of their kind remain among the tools of hope.

The post is here. Wings's main page is here. This one sold years ago, of course, but if the style speaks to your spirit, simply inquire via the site's Contact form; Wings can create a version uniquely your own (and with nearly any stone, too). And, as always, sales are very much needed (especially now; doctor's visit today, two big scrips for equipment and an order for bloodwork for Monday), so shares of the site links are much appreciated.



All content, including photos and text, are copyright Wings and Aji, 2017; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.



Wednesday, December 6, 2017

Curtain rods, finally. Drapes, too. Pray that the testing starts tomorrow. Sales/shares/registries needed.

Photo copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved.

Not a good shot, because iPad. The transfer (and charging) port on my camera didn't survive the Albuquerque trip, apparently, and so I'm trying to find a solution. No luck yet, and not enough time or energy to devote to it as I normally would.

At any rate, Marcos did that today. He needs the work, and so we're keeping him on intermittently (nowhere near every day) between now and January. He's working with his brother tomorrow and Friday, but he had today free, so we had him put up curtain rods (and he hung the drapes so I didn't have to, all on his own), and do a couple of other things. He'll be back a couple of days next week, too, to take care of various odds and ends that will take some of the load off Wings (because I'm useless right now; I'm not allowed to carry anything, much less install stuff), and earn some extra scratch for his family for the holidays, too. 

Tomorrow is the day when I find out whether I can really trust this new doc. If I come away with the necessary labwork, we're good. If not . . . ::shrugs::. No comment. So fingers crossed that she schedules the necessary blood panels tomorrow. I wont know anything at all before that appointment's over, and I suspect I won't know much even then, because this is clearly going to take some testing to figure out what it is, much less how to treat it. But it's got to be the first step. 

Lots of expenses coming down the pike (first one already here in yesterday's mail), and we need to make some sales. Given the circumstances, I'm leaving up the donation link, too, and the registries have some new items on then, mostly lower-priced, to replace stuff damaged by the RV or given away when we first moved into it seven years ago. So please share the links:
  • Wings's direct PayPal link;
  • Wings's site, for sales;
  • Wayfair gift cards, to replenish all the furnishings that the RV has destroyed in one way or another.
  • Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. There are new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need to replace (either because the RV ruined it or because we gave it away when we had to downsize).
  • Partial registry #2, from Wayfair. Still waiting for them to resolve this fulfillment/shipping problem they have with their site. Even so, I've added some things (kitchen/dining room stuff mostly), most of which are comparatively reasonably priced. Now, it's going to be mostly odds and ends that make this place more liveable, because of the sheer volume of stuff destroyed by too many years in the RV (e.g., by the oven and stovetop, by the wiring, by the water, by the mold, etc.), or that we simply gave away seven years ago because we had no room and no place to put them and despaired of ever being able to use them again. A CHANGE ABOUT WAYFAIR:  NO MORE CROWDFUNDING. Their Web site coding is bad, and it will not permit crowdfunded items to ship. Items purchased outright arrive in two business days, but you can't even get the others out of the warehouse. I've spent the last month fighting with them about shipping the dozen or so things that folks fulfilled, and today's message was finally terse enough that they did the manual override, four whole weeks later, that I knew they could do but simply weren't bothering. But I'll be removing all the crowdfunding options. I'm supposed to keep my blood pressure down these days.
As I've also been saying, I am still catching up, and will be now for a while. But this is the holiday season, and the sales/commissions from these few weeks are what keep us alive throughout the whole long winter and spring months (to say nothing of what's in the offing medically), so please continue to share the links. And please refer folks to Wings's site (and if you have an endorsement, too, so much the better). I'll be trying, slowly but, I hope, steadily, to get caught up over the course of this week. We have some massive expenses coming down the pike, and a lot of testing yet to be done before I'm out of the woods. So please keep sharing all our links. For now, I'm just so damn grateful to be alive, to have a healthy heart, to be back home with the love of my life and our dogs, the whole world is beautiful. Thanks again, to everybody, and we love you all.





All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.

Keeping Faith

Photo copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved.

Now posted at The NDN Silver Blog, it's a work for a week when the spirits it embodies remind us to stay strong. The weather has turned cold, the wind harsh, the way difficult, and yet keeping faith keeps us on the right path.

The post is here. Wings's main page is here. Inquiries via the site's Contact form.  And, as always, sales are very much needed (especially now; testing begins tomorrow, we hope), so shares of the site links are much appreciated.



All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.

Tuesday, December 5, 2017

Sleep at last. Also a closet and a dishwasher at last. T-2 days for labwork, I hope. Sales/shares/registries needed.

Photo copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved.

We now have a functional closet; Tony finished it up today. They'll stain the wood to match after the first of the year, but this means we can get our clothes arranged in some sort of halfway-organized manner finally, instead of draped over whatever's available or stacked on the floor. We've managed to keep it fairly neat, but it's been a pain, and I can't really bend over right now, so it's especially useful to me to have them up within reach.

We also have a working dishwasher, which will make life much easier now. I stood at the sink to do our very few dishes two days ago, and even though my movement was minimal, it wiped me out. I can't begin to describe what a blessing it is to have a working kitchen sink, either; now that my movements are so severely curtailed, just having to walk, no matter how slowly, between kitchen and downstairs bath to fill the pot to make coffee is exhausting. Speaking of which, I had already cut my coffee consumption back to only one morning cup, but that was bothering me, so I tried decaf this morning, and about fell asleep with my brain in neutral. So I tried a midday cup of the kind of leaded we drink, and it was too strong. Tomorrow, we'll try half one and half the other, mixed together, and see whether it's doable for me. I can't function without coffee.

And nope, no hard answers yet. The one good thing is that for the first time in over a week, I did not wake up in the middle of the night feeling like I was in the middle of dying. No need for a bad nitro trip, either. In other words, I slept. But it's pretty clear that what's been happening at night has been happening to a lesser degree during each day, too, and so I've spent almost all of today upstairs, where the concentrator cord will reach, with the cannula firmly in place. If I had to guess, I'd say some sort of autoimmune-driven vasospastic response, which could be a really, really severe form of vasculitis like what sometimes occurs with lupus, or could be arterial spasm secondary to something like hypereosinophilia. [Yes, I've done the homework no one else was willing to do, because I know both my body and the autoimmune possibilities that have been in my system literally my entire life; I've had to, because no one else will.] I don't think it's an accident that the first incident occurred in the literal middle of my exposure to that mist cloud of deck stain, the active ingredient of which is cobalt 2 ethylhexanoate, something treated fairly cavalierly here in the States (natch), but tightly regulated in the UK and EU. On Thursday, I see the doc for a follow-up, so keep your fingers crossed for blood labs that tell us something, at least.

Lots of expenses coming down the pike (first one already here in yesterday's mail), and we need to make some sales. Given the circumstances, I'm leaving up the donation link, too, and the registries have some new items on then, mostly lower-priced, to replace stuff damaged by the RV or given away when we first moved into it seven years ago. So please share the links:
  • Wings's direct PayPal link;
  • Wings's site, for sales;
  • Wayfair gift cards, to replenish all the furnishings that the RV has destroyed in one way or another.
  • Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. There are new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need to replace (either because the RV ruined it or because we gave it away when we had to downsize).
  • Partial registry #2, from Wayfair. Still waiting for them to resolve this fulfillment/shipping problem they have with their site. Even so, I've added some things (kitchen/dining room stuff mostly), most of which are comparatively reasonably priced. Now, it's going to be mostly odds and ends that make this place more liveable, because of the sheer volume of stuff destroyed by too many years in the RV (e.g., by the oven and stovetop, by the wiring, by the water, by the mold, etc.), or that we simply gave away seven years ago because we had no room and no place to put them and despaired of ever being able to use them again. A CHANGE ABOUT WAYFAIR:  NO MORE CROWDFUNDING. Their Web site coding is bad, and it will not permit crowdfunded items to ship. Items purchased outright arrive in two business days, but you can't even get the others out of the warehouse. I've spent the last month fighting with them about shipping the dozen or so things that folks fulfilled, and today's message was finally terse enough that they did the manual override, four whole weeks later, that I knew they could do but simply weren't bothering. But I'll be removing all the crowdfunding options. I'm supposed to keep my blood pressure down these days.
As I've also been saying, I am still catching up, and will be now for a while. But this is the holiday season, and the sales/commissions from these few weeks are what keep us alive throughout the whole long winter and spring months (to say nothing of what's in the offing medically), so please continue to share the links. And please refer folks to Wings's site (and if you have an endorsement, too, so much the better). I'll be trying, slowly but, I hope, steadily, to get caught up over the course of this week. We have some massive expenses coming down the pike, and a lot of testing yet to be done before I'm out of the woods. So please keep sharing all our links. For now, I'm just so damn grateful to be alive, to have a healthy heart, to be back home with the love of my life and our dogs, the whole world is beautiful. Thanks again, to everybody, and we love you all.





All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2017; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.