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That was this morning; those clouds are much bigger now. Much grayer, too. In theory, we're supposed to get rain after 4 PM; we'll see. For now, it's just hot.::Sigh:: there are days, and then there are days.
This whole year has seemed like the latter kind. Today was guaranteed to go sideways because for the second time in three days, I'm operating on no sleep. No, it's not anything that can be fixed; it's what this disease does. But it means that all the things I was going to get caught up on today? Yeah, no.
Then again, it's been nonstop bullshit all day anyway. I've been running [hobbling, but whatever] enough that I didn't even get to finish my coffee. No wonder I feel like shit. And yes, everything's out of order today, because Wings is trying to finish up two more pairs of the new earrings [plus a gorget he's had in process for weeks, which will be several days yet], and he got to the end of the second pair, and had to redrill some of the beads. When they're commercially drilled, it seems reasonable to me to expect them all to have roughly the same size holes, enough to hold that very thin wire, but apparently not. So now I have lapis dust ground into the cracks of my hands from helping hold them [so does he, for that matter]. But it's put us both way behind on everything today, because one of those pairs is [theoretically, anyway] going to be today's feature.
I also got fed up and rejected 8 or 9 requests to join the local mutual-aid group, because people apparently think the rules don't apply to them, and wow, did they ever pick the wrong person to try that bullshit on, especially right now. There are three short questions to establish residency and intent, and a requirement to agree to the rules. It's not onerous. But they seem to think that I'll pass them on through without doing that bare minimum, and fuck that, because besides being disrespectful of me, my time, and my work, I don't have time to chase down whether they live here or not [it's open to locals only], and I'm not going to borrow problems by letting people pretend they're exempt from the rules right off the bat. And if you're reading this and getting pissed off because you're one of them? I do this ALL VOLUNTEER. I don't get paid a cent; it fucking costs me money and time. So sit down. [I've only ever removed one person, for repeatedly violating them in the course of a single argumentative attempt to force me to let her continue to violate them. One person out of now more than 400 is not a bad record for nine months.]
Today is also the 18th anniversary of the day my father walked on, and that's one more thing to make this a difficult day. If you know me at all well, you how . . . problematic he was. And this is just one more reminder of a lot of stuff I'd really rather not remember. God, this fucking day . . . .
And, of course, the new replacement well pressure pump is still failing, and of course, no word on the tank, never mind when they'll be out to dig, and I'm at my wits' fucking end. It's been over a month. Now I have to worry about losing water again on top of all the scheduling, and I've spent the last four weeks chasing people around to organize everything related to it, and I'm tired. Add no sleep, repeatedly, and the constant accelerating pain, and what I was so hoping would be a good start to a good week is exactly the opposite.
And all that expense to come, whenever it actually comes, means that we still need shares, and we most definitely still need sales, several grand's worth of sales, until I can get everything covered that has to get covered. Which means I have to get caught up on the work somehow. Links are here:
- Sales here;
- Testimonials here;
- Amazon wishlist here (current priorities are the Soapbox soaps, which I can't get locally);
- Patreon here;
- Ko-fi here.
After such a grim year last year, and the first half of this one at least as bad, we urgently need to move 2025 onto a better footing, because taxes to this Nazi administration have already tapped us out and we still owe more anyway, so please share all of the links.
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