Even she loses her balance occasionally.

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So much for feeling better. I mean, I knew this would happen; it always does, especially with this kind of unstable weather, and also because if I'm right about the newest bit of information in this puzzle, it will take me at least a year or two to get free of the immediate effects. That's if ever; some people dealing with this never do. If I fall into that category, it just means that these episodes will be dangers for the rest of my life. But it's got me entirely off-balance, in a lot of pain, not really able to breathe properly from the asthma, and just overall general misery today.

I guess it helps to know that even she loses her balance occasionally. [Yes, that's exactly what happened; she slipped on the icy-slick posts and started keeling over backwards, and gave me this shot in the process.]  Even so, it's a lot of pain to deal with today, along with scarier effects.

And still the work has to get done. Our outlay this month has been absolutely staggering, and I've got to start making it up somewhere.

It wound up being something like $235+ for Sunny, probably because he was over 50 pounds while Stormy was under 50. At any rate, within the last week or so, we've had to shell out $225 for Stormy's spaying, $235 for his neutering, $40 for my remaining scrip, and we also paid $400, unexpectedly, for two loads of wood two days ago, more to help the guys trying to sell it than out of any immediate need. It won't go to waste; at this elevation, we use it nearly year-round. But it wasn't planned; it was just that someone needed the help. At some point, I'm going to have to make it up somewhere, and my Patreon still has nearly $300 in subscriptions for December still unpaid, so folks, please check your cards and the expirations. 

The last two weeks have been brutal on a whole bunch of fronts. I have had to justify my humanity repeatedly and be told that it's not enough, and I am done. No more. I don't care; I'm done. I'm so tired, in ways people who don't deal with my health issues will never understand anyway, and dealing with another episode of nearly dying two mornings ago is going to be with me for a while, physically and mentally both. And I have to get back to my own work, back to making masks for folks, and most of all, back to making sales, which are at record lows now.

There is no economy now. There's nothing. People are literally dying all around us from the government's failures, and I don't know how we keep them, or us, alive unless I can cover the bills. We have lost SO much to 2020, so very, very many people, and the gifts and the talents and the knowledge and the wisdom they carried too often lost with them. Because this state has followed the lead of the country and refused to do what was required, we are about to see a very big spike in new cases, probably as early as two weeks from now; the current spike in deaths remains sustained daily. People have needed so much more help than we could give them, but we did as much as we could, even when it put us in a bind, and we will need to do much more of that this year. So:

• Sales here; 
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And if you've been contemplating a purchase? Marking the birth of 2021 would be a very, very good time to do it. There's even new work, here and here, and among other new pieces, so please watch for them and share the links.

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