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Yes, that rose really was the color of the eastern sky last night. Not quite full — that happens about less than half an hour from now — but you couldn't tell by looking at it. Supposed to be no real chance of snow today, but the clouds are moving in from the west and the air is cold and damp.
Which means, of course, that I'm feeling it today. I'm two days out from all the shoveling, and the second day is always worse, but it's the weather that's really jacking my pain levels. I'm still doing better than I was this time last week, but that's a very low bar to clear.
I also have a lot do. Aside from the work, we just shelled out $600 cash, because the propane tank needed refilling. We don't use it for heat per se, but the water heater and range are both gas, and I think it's been about two years since we had it filled. It had gotten below the minimum fill line for operability, and they will only come out for a certain minimum, so here we are. It will last us the rest of the year, and probably a good chunk of the next one, too, but I wasn't planning on having to make up $600 today. Which means I have to turn my attention to chasing sales. [There is new work here, BTW.] Our outlay this month has been absolutely staggering, and I've got to start making it up somewhere. Meanwhile, I'm struggling daily with my health, and this past weekend was murderous. I'm feeling a little better again today, which means that I will necessarily overdo it just to try to catch up a little bit, and then I will pay for it later this week, but that's the way it has to be.
It wound up being something like $235+ for Sunny, probably because he was over 50 pounds while Stormy was under 50. At any rate, within the last week or so, we've had to shell out $225 for Stormy's spaying, $235 for his neutering, $40 for my remaining scrip, and we also paid $400, unexpectedly, for two loads of wood two days ago, more to help the guys trying to sell it than out of any immediate need. It won't go to waste; at this elevation, we use it nearly year-round. But it wasn't planned; it was just that someone needed the help. At some point, I'm going to have to make it up somewhere, and my Patreon still has nearly $300 in subscriptions for December still unpaid, so folks, please check your cards and the expirations.
The last two weeks have been brutal on a whole bunch of fronts. I have had to justify my humanity repeatedly and be told that it's not enough, and I said I was done: No more; I don't care; I'm done. I'm so tired, in ways people who don't deal with my health issues will never understand anyway, and dealing with another episode of nearly dying last week is going to be with me for a while, physically and mentally both. And I have to get back to my own work, back to making masks for folks, and most of all, back to making sales, which are at record lows now. but I had to do it anyway again the other day. It's hard knowing that you don't matter, that the world would just as soon see you die and be happy about it.
There is no economy now. There's nothing. People are literally dying all around us from the government's failures, and I don't know how we keep them, or us, alive unless I can cover the bills. We have lost SO much to 2020, so very, very many people, and the gifts and the talents and the knowledge and the wisdom they carried too often lost with them. Because this state has followed the lead of the country and refused to do what was required, we are about to see a very big spike in new cases, probably as early as two weeks from now; the current spike in deaths remains sustained daily. People have needed so much more help than we could give them, but we did as much as we could, even when it put us in a bind, and we will need to do much more of that this year. So:
And if you've been contemplating a purchase? Marking the birth of 2021 would be a very, very good time to do it. There's even new work, here and here and now here, among other new pieces, so please watch for them and share the links.
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