A metaphor, and also not.

Photo copyright Aji, 2025; all rights reserved.

It's a metaphor, and also not. This is what this day has been like. Not in a good way; in the kind of way it looks like up there.

I'm tired, I'm sad, I'm too much of both even to be angry right now. Anger keeps me going when everything is shit, but I don't have anything left right now.

It doesn't help at all to realize that nine years ago this evening was when Griffin, my spirit dog, left us. This fucking cancer cluster here takes EVERYTHING. He was  my life, my whole soul; Wings's, too. And that never gets any better.

And then there's everything else. I'm too tired to go into any of it; almost too tired to care. Not quite, though, since I've been sitting here sobbing while I work for the last hour straight. I don't know how much of that is aggravated by the upped chemo dose. Probably none of it; if anything's aggravating it, it's much more likely to be disease progression generally. But it wouldn't matter, because right now, at this moment, I just have nothing left.

Of course, as I said, by this point every year, I'm always so far behind on everything. And now I have to figure out how to prepay our taxes for next year, because this is two years in a row with this nonsense and I can't do this again. For two years, I've been very literally killing myself trying to cover everything, and it is what it is, and I'm too tired to give a shit anymore. My illness is progressing, and the world is on fire, and right now, I'm tapped out on every level. But the world doesn't give a shit, and what I said about it killing me? I wasn't joking. so we need to bring in more sales, a lot of them, immediately. There's too much that still has to be covered, well pump, new tires on the truck, medical stuff, and we're out of time.

Links are here:

• Sales here; 
• Testimonials here; 
• Amazon wishlist here (Priorities are Amazon gift cards, which we can ALWAY use, and those adjustable Black KN95 masks are badly needed, because I gave away all the rest of ours to relatives; it would good to have several boxes, so I can keep handing them out, too); 
• Patreon here;
• Ko-fi here.

After such a grim year last year, and this one beginning at least as badly, we urgently need to move 2025 onto a better footing because taxes to this Nazi administration will take every last cent and we'll still owe them more anyway, so please share all of the links. 

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