Friday, September 27, 2019

A Time of Long Shadows

Photo copyright Aji, 2019; all rights reserved.

It's a time of long shadows, both seasonally and in very personal terms. We've had a lot going on these last three years, building the house to get out of the toxic tin can, my multiple hospitalizations and brushes with death, a cancer diagnosis inflicted and then retracted and then declared unresolved, a wholly new DX that no one's able to confirm, but that fits far too well in too many ways. And running through it all, the endless stream of medical bills, and the endless costs to try to fix — forget finish for now, just fix — the issues with the house. Shadows cast two years ago are still affecting us in material and terrifying ways today.

One bit of good news is that my labs are already back, and they are clear. Given the past couple of weeks, I thought they would be, but for the weeks prior to that, we had reason to be genuinely afraid they would show something awful. It's nice to know that the change to traditional medicine has resolved those symptoms, at least.  

Like yesterday, I'm on the run again today, so you probably won't see much of me until evening again. Too much to do, and too few hours in which to get it done. And still, we have got to make some steady sales soon. I'm watching the expenses continue to pile up, and there's nothing coming in to pay for them, and I'm losing my mind trying to juggle it all.

As always, I'll be bumping Ona's post up after this. He's a little over $13K right this moment (I see you, and thank you), and I'd like to see him hit $15K before the end of the week (which is, you know, tomorrow — or today, if you're talking about the business/work week). We need y'all to keep sharing while the family tries to get transport issues sorted out and keep his recovery going simultaneously.

The rest is all cut-and-paste. I have my own stubborn insistence on survival, no matter how far behind I get, but I'm way behind now and have to get on it. 

For those wondering about my own health issues, see here; with regard to the work being done, some of the details are here. We still have to get the plumber in to finish up, and I regard that as a bigger priority right now in practical terms, so whatever we take in sales-wise will have to go to that. This is all complicated by the fact that, for August, a record number/amount of my Patreon patrons' cards were declined, too, more than $250 worth, so that income is a lot lower than usual and I now have to worry about whether that will be the case for September, too (no, I don't know who and haven't checked; I'm not going to contact anyone who probably is already scrambling to juggle their own stuff, too).

Anyway. Back to the grind; so I need help to get all this done. Folks can help in several ways, and we really need the help now:
On the wishlist, now the cold is here at night, the flies are getting chased out by the cold, so the top priority is probably the candles, to deal with the residual mildew odor in the utility room, which I hope the plumber will be here to finish next week (the utility room work, not the mildew, and yeah, I know i said that last week, but there's no money for it). But the costs on all of this are killing us right now.

And as I said, sales are ideal, of course; one or two of Wings's bigger pieces would cover the whole shot for this round of work. Patreon subscriptions are good, too. Either way, it's a trade for value. But I'm already feeling panicked at what we thought would be our schedule being so suddenly and thoroughly upended, and we'll take it however it comes at this point. 

Please share everything, because I'm suddenly back behind the eight-ball on a whole additional front, and yeah, I'm scared about covering everything and surviving, too. Thanks.





All content, including photos and text, are copyright Aji, 2019; all rights reserved. Nothing herein may used or reproduced in any form without the express written permission of the owner.

No comments :

Post a Comment