No idea how to fix it.

Photo copyright Aji, 2023; all rights reserved.

Wings like Thunderbird, stretching across the sky.

No thunder today, but there might be a little snow later. The sky is white, and the air is cold.

Fitting for the last full day of the Earth's year. Not that I'm able to so anything with it. I woke up in the early-morning hours with my second migraine in five days, and this one's far worse than the first. All of my RA symptoms have come roaring back, too: hands, elbows, shoulders, hips, knees, feet. Plus several other symptoms, too many to detail or try to explain. I feel like death, not even warmed over, and I have no idea how to fix it.

Mostly because there isn't a way. That was lost when doctors patted me on the head for a quarter of a fucking century and told me to stop looking for something wrong. It was wrong all the time, and if they had any kind of humane and accurate training, they'd have known that, but they couldn't be bothered. And here I am. At the point where it's progressive, where organ damage is going to happen [probably already is], and where my chances at being decently mobile seem to be decreasing by the day. The pain is unbearable, and nothing touches it.

And given how terrible a year this has been sales-wise, through it all I still have to make sales, of course. We've had a half-dozen now since T-Day, but we'll need to sell a lot more between now and year's end, obviously. My Patreon for the month is still down ~$250 at the moment [that's how much it was short on the December 1st payout for subscriptions for the month of November, and so far, all of those still haven't been paid]. My guess is that those won't materialize later in the month; that will be the penalty [or one of them anyway] for taking a vocal stand about the genocide being perpetrated against Palestine and its people now. Of course, we haven't brought in anywhere nearly enough sales all year across the board, even before recent developments that require a moral stand of us. It's grim.

And aside from all of that, I also need to bring in at least $6K in sales between now and year's end to cover tax prepayments, and we haven't hit the $1K mark on that yet. Normally, I would've been paying them quarterly, but not this year; we haven't had enough sales to do that, and I'm behind on everything else, too, all while my illness worsens seemingly by the day. Until those prepayments are off my desk, I can't relax, can't do anything other than push to get them covered. I really need help. As always, all the links are listed below, and sales are the most important:

• Sales here; 
• Testimonials here; 
• Amazon wishlist here (priorities now are Wings's Flex-Tape, and especially the vacuum, because mine has died a complete and ignominious death, and if I don't vacuum every single day, the dog hair takes over completely); 
• Patreon here;
• Ko-fi here.

There's lots of fabulous work on the site, and there will be much more in the days to come [EIGHT NEW PIECES LAST NIGHT, plus two new ones a couple of nights ago]. The way this year has gone, things will still be grim for a good while and the holidays are already here, so please share all of the links. 

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