Stillness.

Photo copyright Aji, 2019; all rights reserved.

A rare moment of stillness when outdoors. I wish I had a fraction of her energy. Also of her confidence; she's taken over every upholstered surface in the house.

This week has been absolute crap. Well, the last couple of days, particularly; today's not looking promising, either. No rain today, and I'm doubtful about the snow tomorrow, but that's not the issue. The stress on me right now, from so very many quarters, is threatening to crush me. Several hundred out the door this week; many more hundreds (thousands?) coming up, possibly surgery, still don't know whether I'm living or dying, and I'm running out of time on the tax stuff. If I don't surface the rest of the weekend, this is why. Living with this kind of stress is literally killing me, and there's nothing I can do about it. Stillness? Ha. Not allowed for me.

Meanwhile, everybody still wants their money. The tax man, the hospitals, it's endless. I have another appointment with my regular doc tomorrow, which means cash on the barrelhead. I'll have another bill coming next week for the second biopsy, and then another bill (or maybe two) for the reading of it. We have no answers yet, including no answers as to what almost killed me twice 16+ months ago. And whatever the outcome with this, I still have more testing to undergo related to that. Next goal is paying off the hospitals from that mess, which comes to more than $30K just between the two of them, and they dun me daily. We need to make sales, and toward that end, there will be more items to come, and soon: two non-jewelry items by Wings's clan brother coming up later today; and a half-dozen pairs of the butterfly earrings by Wings, each with different stones (the jade are already spoken for, but that still leaves amber, rainbow moonstone, amethyst, denim lapis, and blue turquoise) coming up probably over the weekend or early next week. And I need to pay both medical and tax stuff this coming week, so here are the links:

• My Patreon, The Interstices (Writing Between Worlds) (and if you subscribe today you won't be billed until April 1st for March);
• Wings's site, for sales, with lots of new items posted;
• Wings's direct PayPal link;
• A way to buy me coffee (which actually goes to all of our medical bills, which continue to mount);
• Amazon wishlist, which mostly consists of animal and household stuff, with the kibble back off it, because Wings can't lift the boxes right now with his shoulder;
• Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. I've added two or three new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need.

All we want, to be able to have some confidence in making it through the whole year with whatever they're going to find going wrong in my body, is to make some sales. That's it: sales; nothing else. The stress is constant, and it's telling. Good vibes for Raven are needed today especially (he's still hanging with us, and I need him to be safe while we're out). But we all could use some, too, me most of all. We all could also use some help with sharing Wings's site (and testimonials, if you got 'em). Thanks.

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