If only.

Photo copyright Aji, 2021; all rights reserved.

She looks like she's both making her escape and heading eagerly for something wonderful (which she probably was). 

If only.

I'm gonna be scarce. I'm completely overwhelmed right now with just ordinary stuff, all the repairs and so forth, but this other thing hanging over me is seemingly more problematic by the day. My pain levels are completely out of control right now, which could be just ongoing flare, could be pollen, could be weather, could be vaccine reax, or could be . . . something very much else. Next week can't come soon enough.

As I said, I talked to the imaging folks first thing Monday morning, and their earliest opening is next week, meaning that I have to sit here on pins and needles for more than a week before I know anything. They decided just based on my phone conversation with them that they would need to do the extra imaging. They have also promised to knock 50% of the cost right off the top if I pay the whole thing in cash up front, so that's what's going to happen, by hook or by crook. Which means sales. I think I have all of it covered, but I need to make sure I can do all of it, AND also take care of the repairs we're having done here this week.

That involves Tony and Nano working on some other things that have needed doing for a long, long time, and the new plumber. The plumber and his crew, which consisted of his son and his son's friend, finally got our water softener hooked up properly and functioning, which will help keep the water heater running properly for many more years than without, and they also got the washer and dryer up on their pedestals at long last. I know that sounds silly to a lot of folks, like there's nothing urgent about it, but the thing most folks don't know? My multiple episodes of nearly dying three and a half years ago did some damage to my airway. I can no longer bend forward for more than a couple of seconds without it shutting it off. These are front-loaders (why? because they were 40% off, and the Lowe's gift cards we'd been given could cover them), and with the sheer volume of laundry we have to do here, it means I was spending a lot of very painful time bent over trying to load and unload. Running a farm is dirty work. Yeah, I know, so-called first-world problems and all that, but I can't do it any other way anymore. Disability does that. [Yes, I know one of y'all's buddies says our home with the 660' footprint is "extravagant," but a lot of y'all only love Natives for trauma and poverty porn. We deserve a chance at a little comfort at our age, especially with all of our disabilities, and I'm not apologizing for being able to do laundry at home, because I literally could not do it any other way.]

Anyway. I still need to make some more sales, to cover that and still be able to cover what's coming. Because even if the tests are all covered, if  the scans come back the way all the evidence suggests they will? Survival is going to be a whole lot more expensive than that. Yes, I'm scared. On both fronts, medical and financial. I can't afford the travel, for one, never mind the treatment protocols or the surgery.

We need sales. Sales, sales, SALES. That's it; that's all; that's everything right now. Please, I'm begging folks:  Share our links, and if you're in the market, keep Wings's work in mind for purchases. 

I'm skipping all the rest of it because I'm tired, and frankly I don't have the focus right now for anything else. Links are here:

• Sales here; 
• Testimonials here; 
• Amazon wishlist here (priorities are LaminaSaver for Miika [she's set until August] & metal/glass/dishwasher cleaners);
• Patreon here;
• Ko-fi here.

And if you've been contemplating a purchase? This would be a very, very good time to do it; I've got to make up this staggering outlay somehow. There's lots of fabulous new work, so please share all of the links. 

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