Monsters.

Photo copyright Aji, 2021; all rights reserved.

The clouds lately have been producing an array of monsters in the sky. Those I can deal with; it's the monsters down here on the ground that worry me, and Spirit knows we've got far too many of them to deal with right now.

Not all of them are human, either, at least not in the usual way we think of that word. Tomorrow I find out what needs to begin with regard to my own latest process, which potentially includes a particularly nasty monster, and which will also entail at least one referral, probably two, and possibly more (one? a few? several?) than that. Yes, I'm scared. On both counts, medical and financial. As I said yesterday, if I could make ~$1,200 worth of sales between today and tomorrow, I'd feel much more secure about the taxes, especially given that I don't know what might lie ahead on the testing front for me in the very short term.

Expenses this week alone? Still the taxes (the big thing); our doctor's appointments (and whatever else might follow from that for me); and the vet and the farrier for more work correcting Miika's laminitis, so that's three big bills this week alone. Oh, and the reg renewal on the truck, too. Then there are Wings's hearing aids, for obvious reasons. We still have to get hold of Pojoaque Pueblo's bison program to see how much it will cost to buy a share of a buffalo. Early research suggests around ~$2K, so we may need to crowdfund that. The thing about it is that it won't feed only us; it'll get shared with other folks. And then there's the well issue. I need help. I can't fund this just with my own work, and if my health turns out to be more problematic than I've been thinking, I won't even be able to do much of that. 

No word on the grant funding, which I expect will be the case for months yet, and I also fully expect it to be denied, so, that will mean funding it ourselves, too, but it's clearly not optional anymore. I'm going to need to set up PayPal pools to fund all of these things if we can't make a whole bunch of sales now. It's endless, and I am so tired just thinking about it. 

We need sales. Sales, sales, SALES. That's it; that's all; that's everything right now. I'll have a new cuff posted tomorrow and another new one Wednesday, and if we could sell just those alone, it would put a big dent in the costs piled up for this week and the next.

The last couple of years have required us to dig deep and ante up to help others at a level we've never done before. This year? The first month and a half of 2021? Had already buried that, and we're a whole lot more "mutual aid" beyond that point now. People are suffering. And I'm going to have to do some fundraising for a couple of other folks on here in the days and weeks to come. If we had money, we'd just give it to these folks outright, but the kind they need is way beyond anything we'll ever be able to do, hence the need to help with fundraising.

But as I said about that being why we do what we do, especially now in these days of pandemic, it's become abundantly clear that too often, there IS NO tomorrow, and the only chance you might have to help someone stay alive is TODAY. Things are bad locally; no economy, nothing. We have lost SO much to 2020 (and already in 2021 including a distant relative-by-marriage we learned of just the last week, a brilliant Native artist whose death has hit Wings hard, plus another person from here related to a friend of ours), so very, very many people, and the gifts and the talents and the knowledge and the wisdom they carried too often lost with them. People have needed so much more help than we could give them, but we did as much as we could, even when it put us in a bind, and we will need to do much more of that this year. People continue to need help, and we give it, but we're up well over $2 grand in just one week in February, and a whole lot more both before and since. 

I've got to find it again somewhere. Part of my work involves me reorganizing the Web site and then promoting the hell out of everything again. That's on top of all the other work I need to do around here, and I have been mostly useless, largely due to the recent flurry of episodes with my health. For every episode, it takes me multiple days to recover, all while hoping that another one doesn't set me back even further. That's not good. Too many people need help, and the government remains determined to see us die. There's work to do. This is why I've had to stop doing some things; there are just not enough hours in the day anymore, and I've got to make it all of this up somewhere. So:

• Sales here; 
• Testimonials here; 
• Amazon wishlist here (priorities are LaminaSaver for Miika [she's set until August] & metal/glass/dishwasher cleaners);
• Patreon here;
• Ko-fi here.

And if you've been contemplating a purchase? This would be a very, very good time to do it; I've got to make up this staggering outlay somehow. There's lots of fabulous new work, and more to come, possibly as early as today or tomorrow, so please watch for that and share all of the links. 

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