An old friend.

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An old friend came to visit yesterday, for the first time in months, maybe more than a year. That's Esiban, back for the afternoon. When the world has turned to shit, there's nothing quite like having a dog recognize you on sight and come running straight to you to give you the doggy equivalent of a hug of pure joy at seeing you again.

Labs done this morning; should have the results in a few days. No word yet on the biopsy, and with every passing day, I get more and more antsy. After what I now know is 15 full months of this having been ignored, I have to worry about running out of time. It's all the more acute given how sick I've been feeling lately in new and unpleasant ways, including this morning.

And as I've also said, if that's what it is, we are going to fight it every step of the way, no matter what it costs, either in money or in pain. Given that both could be considerable, I'd really like to get this under way immediately, so I can figure out what I'm really facing here.

So we've got more big outlays coming up, much bigger ones very soon. As I've also said, we were fortunate to have squirreled away funds to cover this at the moment, but it's barely February; there's a lot of year ahead of us. If it is cancer, the costs are going to skyrocket very fast, and we have no way of paying for it, and neither of us cares; we're doing this. Determination is the word; with Wings's help, I'm going to beat whatever it is. So much fear intertwined with all of this, and no end in sight. All this stuff is piling up fast and I have to get us through the whole year, not just the next two weeks, so please share the links (or use them, if anyone's so inclined):

• My Patreon, The Interstices (Writing Between Worlds) (and if you subscribe today you won't be billed until March 1st for February);
• Wings's site, for sales, with lots of new items posted;
• Wings's direct PayPal link;
• A way to buy me coffee (which actually goes to all of our medical bills, which continue to mount);
• Amazon wishlist, which mostly consists of animal and household stuff;
• Partial registry #1, from Bed, Bath and Beyond. There are new kitchen-y things on it now, stuff that I didn't realize we'd need to replace (either because the RV ruined it or because we gave it away when we had to downsize).

All we want, to be able to have some confidence in making it through the whole year with whatever they're going to find going wrong in my body, is to make some sales. That's it: sales; nothing else. But I haven't been able to make even that happen, and the stress is telling. Good vibes for Raven are still welcome (he's still hanging with us, and I need him to be safe while we're out). But I could use some, too. We all could also use some help with sharing Wings's site (and testimonials, if you got 'em). Thanks.

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